R12 - the pinnacle of stupidity

[Sierra Reed]

during tribal council



okay now i think i'm not gonna use my idol. i've never gone out with an idol before, this would be my first time.


but i've been thinking about it... i keep saying i need a break from these games anyway, right? lol. so if i go out... maybe that'll be not such a bad thing.




i just... i always tend to use idols rather quickly. i wanna see if i can hold onto one until final 5. i know i only got it in final 6 but still, i've never had an idol at final 5. it'd be cool. i just feel kinda dumb about my decision like... like they are gonna vote me.




if they really feel that their votes are pointless, they may vote me just in case i dont use it. lol.







fabio told me i should show austin this:


ItsFabioDude (4:32:12 PM): Monica 10:21 pm
Austin was on board.
Fab IO 10:22 pm
the problem
is
she has an idol
Monica 10:22 pm
and she is playing it
Fab IO 10:22 pm
yeah
Monica 10:22 pm
I think what we have to do
is sadly

vote out austin.




and this:

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so i did... and fabio PM'd austin backing it up apparently... so.. austin says he's gonna vote monica.

the thing is... austin now knows who we're voting, so there's no reason monica shouldn't know beyond the shadow of a doubt that it's her... there's really no reason, i would sya, that she wouldn't have the vote nullifier from stephenie.





rob said he double voted monica. so did fabio. so if i double vote that should be six on her...

it should turn out being 4-3, is austin does what i think he'll do and votes with them. that's really a close margin...




is rob and fabio both using their double votes? no way of knowing, really...





















now... as for next round, if i survive... me and rob talked things out some today. i showed him the proof that monica and steph and fab did in fact want him out, were trying to get me to vote him out... he wanted proof, cause he didn't really believe it, for some... dumb reason...


at the same time as they were trying to play me on him, they were trying to play him on me...




but yeah, we sorta hashed out our problems... that stemmed from way back in pre-merge... when he was with brett more and i was with monica more...

and i dont know, he admitted that he was open to voting me out... but i think i'm getting closer to him being for real abt not voting me out...


we'll see... i really dont wanna talk too much abt next round, and abt the future of the game... right now.


i honestly am HUGELY doubting i will have a next round... but if i do, it will be a safe one...







cause i really don't think i'm gonna use the idol

[Sierra Reed]

but then again... i told rob i might not use it... and told fabio i i might not use it...




so should i really not use it??? it's sooooooooo dangerous...




i hope fabio is voting the way he says, and i hope he has a double vote, and is using it. same with rob, he better be using it...



he better be using it!

[Sierra Reed]

okay i PM'd fabio and told hi mi had to use my idol, i'm sorry i couldn't save it i'm just too worried.



same with rob. if i'm not using it, everyone has to think i am. simple as that.

[Amanda Kimmel]

Wow, and the stuff gets better!

Did Monica send that PM to you?

What makes you think you're being voted out?

[Sierra Reed]

Wow, and the stuff gets better!


i'm trying super hard to write interesting in case it's my last day here!!! thnx for noticing hehehehe!!!



Did Monica send that PM to you?


yepperZ... and in reply... ah well i'll get to that part after. i'll answer your next question first




What makes you think you're being voted out?

paranoia. schizophrenia. LMAO!!!!

nah really, just the way monica was like bowing her head almost in shame in that message... just came off as being fake. like she wants me to think i'm in control, so i dont use my idol. or, well, that is one possible explanation for her sending that to me. or she's just trying to get me to not vote her. OR she's actually being genuine.


but yeah, it's basically just monica telling me not to use my idol, over nad over, that has me concerned. fabio too, telling me not to use it. lol. whenever someone tells me not to use an idol i get paranoid.

[Sierra Reed]

now...


for some more private message convos with monica... been a long time since i've shown any PM convos.... hehehehe what fun!!!!


this here, what i'm about to show you, is my like... scatter-brained best attempt at making monica truly believe i am playing the idol, just in case...





my reply to the PM you saw from monica:


thank you for this. i dont really know what else to say.

i appreciate the sentiment.



i really dont know what to say. i like... i know the vote isn't austin... i have to use my idol and i'll probly be out after whoever goes out now so...


maybe we ca catch up and like make peace after the game or something... i don't know.



i told austin the truth when you got him to come and ask me, by the way, that's actualyl what i'm doing. or planning on right now anyway.





even rob wants me out after this tho so whatever. both of our games are probly screwed





thnx u for the sentiment tho....

[Sierra Reed]

and monica's reply to that:





I do honestly understand that I made a mistake in going for you, and that we can no longer work together.

What I said about liking you as a person though, that never changed. You're a really cool person, and hilarious when you're drunk. I'm fine with making peace now, knowing that we're not necessarily together in the game.

I'm not going to tell you to go for Stephenie or myself. You can decide, and whoever you pick, you have my vote at FTC.

[Sierra Reed]

and my reply to monica:






thnx u... makes me feel better that you dont personally dislike me...


i may end up voting austin anyway and just hoping that ur being honest... lol maybe if you stayed u wouldn't come after me the VERY next round, who knows.




i am completely undecided as of right now.


you didn't really make a mistake in going for me if like you were protecting ur final 3 but... i dont know, maybe u did, who knows... it's just something you did to advance ur game, just sucks that it was me that was screwed over in it. it's just a game..




i dont know. if i end up voting austin, and you end up staying, would we be able to talk next round when i need someone and i have like... nothing? i just feel like i'm gonna be the major target next round and all i can rely on is winning immunity

[Sierra Reed]

monica's reply to that:





Sierra (what's your real name, this is so impersonal, I'm Jake...) You know that I would keep you over Rob ANY day. I'm totally willing to talk things over next round

I'm just legitimately worried that Rob will win immunity again. I'm obviously going to try super hard, but I REALLY think you should keep your idol for next round, in case he does. Otherwise, I won't be able to protect you.

I understand if you want to play it, but I am trying to help you out here.

And yeah, I never play my games personally. I get paranoid sometimes, because I think I play too strategically. I just got worked up over the difference in your and fabio's answers, but that shit's in the past. I'm over it.

[Sierra Reed]

and finally... my last reply, as of now, to her:





yeah i got all worked up too... my name is michael. nice to meet you jake


that's a hot name







so... heres what i'm thinking. ppl keep telling me i dont need to use the idol... and while i kinda trust it, there's also another good reason ppl would say not to use the idol... so i do have to use it, i've never left with an idol before, and i'm not gonna make this one my first time.



however... with that said... i've been thinking and like... if i vote austin, if you guys are really voting that way... would you stay?

and if you would stay... then is there any way that i could like get your word that you wont vote me for that one round? just for next round? anything after that is totally fair game, i dont wanna ask you to change around your alliance and stuff for me ....




okay i have this suspicion that after this we'll have another tribal council. amanda's news thing at the top of the boards, and her comment at the end of last tribal abt this round being an itneresting one, or whatever...

i think something weird is gonna happen. and i think that it's going to be another tribal without a challenge first, possibly...





so like... yeah... i dont know... i can trust you if you say yo uwont vote me next round that you actually wont vote me.

and so ya.. if i were to vote austin, you stayed, would that be something we could work out? i just need someone for next round... that's all i'm worried abt.




thnx for hearing me out... sorry for going on a typing rampage

[Amanda Kimmel]

So Monica might be staying? How do you think you'd pull that off?

[Sierra Reed]

so you see... i'm playing for a vote in my favor, next round. just a vote.


that's all i'm trying to get... a vote for one round, because i am worried abt rob wanting me out. i'm looking solely to the future, as i talk to her... what can i do to make sure i survive next round...





if i can jsut make totally believe that i really worried about being voted out next round, trying to make deals to avoid that happening...


then... that seems like my best shot at having her truly believe i'm using the idol.





















oh and rob showed me his vote, and got me to show him mine. you'll notice i had to quickly edit my vote to show i used my idol... then i had to change it back... that's why. now i trust that rob himself is voting monica, not me... but i just cant put 100% faith in it not getting around that i havne't used my idol... so any pic that gets out to anyone, even him, has to show me using it.





















i should use like a fake idol or something... in case i go out, i could do it on a funny note




lol.

[Sierra Reed]

So Monica might be staying? How do you think you'd pull that off?


oh, i am definately voting monica. i just want to play for her vote, with her, to like... really make her think i need something from her next round... because if i need soemthing next round, it means i won't have an idol anymore and i am worried abt that... which in turn means i am definately playing it this round.



it's just... i'm a ttempting to psych her out. i dont know that it's totalyl necessary but damn i am scared of not using that idol




i gotta do what i can to ensure whatever i can... it's just my way. i can't do a fabio or a brenda and not talk to people LOL








but yeah i am definately voting monica, and i'm not trying to help her stay in any way... at all.


i want her gone, 100%.