entry 7- sneaking

[Brett Clouser]

Ok so before I even got around to listing the pros and cons of living on Green Beach, we had a swap. Hooray. Anywho, the second I saw the swap the wheels in my head started turning. John, Jimmy, Rob, ME, and.... Monica. One of these things is not like the other. One of these things is screwed.

Alright, I'm not exactly committed to taking out Monica at this point in time, but I don't trust her and should we lose I think we can and should take her out. She's a threat and just too damned powerful. The way they kissed her ass around old Green Beach was annoying and I wanted so badly to see her gone. I was originally going to wait and not rock the boat, but what we have here is a prime oppurtunity. Given kidnapping, there will be 4 votes this week should the new green lose. I have recommended that John be kidnapped because he hasn't been yet, and because his votes a bit of a wildcard.

So now if that works, me and Rob have our pick of the other two because we will have half of the vote. Monica and Jimmy are already at each other a bit and getting ones vote against the other is not a difficult task. If necessary, I do have my vote changer and I can ensure that the vote falls as desired.

Do I want to waste my changer? Well no but I can't say it would really be a waste. Ensuring that the right one leaves is never a waste, and if nothing else I can redirect a vote and stop the vote from tying in the situation that Jimmy and Monica team up.

And my vote changer isn't the only one out there and in good hands. Steph told me she got one from a sort of challenge because of a discrepancy with Seirra's reward puzzle score. Speaking of Sierras reward puzzle, she's packing all kinds of shit at this point, which is a good reason not to fuck with her. She congratulated me on my reward in the challenge yesterday, went on about making like 12 confessional posts because she wants the reward, told me she got some kind of double vote nulifyier or something like that that works automatically ... or something? I wish id been on my laptop to save that convo. Anyway Sierra is loaded to the gills in rewards and it scares me. Not pissing that one off.

So anyway, I'm just trying to figure out what to do at this point. Taking out Monica is a risk because I could end up alienating a lot of people on the other tribe should I orchestrate it... one of those people being armed and ready, the others being people im close to who do NOT know im out for Monica and who don't know I have a vote changer and who don't know I have a habit of lying frequently but who likely wont realize that I really do intend to take my allies to the very end, even if im not totally upfront about the road im taking to drive us there...

[Amanda Kimmel]

Do you think you'll even need to go to Tribal this round? You guys are owning this challenge...

[Brett Clouser]

I started writing this before we started this whole hightlight text stuff. Now it'll probably just be an old aarde going out, jt or heidi. I'm fine with that.

[Brett Clouser]

This challenge is BY FAR the most fun, most hilarious thing ever. POOR FABIO ACTUALLY STAYED UP ALL NIGHT TRYING TO CATCH ME. ALL NIGHT.

[Brett Clouser]

Ok, Aftermath of the challenge... not pretty. Unfortunately, Steph and Sierra both took the defeat hard. More than that, they took it personally. Its a bit frustrating.

First, Sierra. She flipped the fuck out over the loss and especially over not getting kidnapped. Can I just say the person annoying me the most in this game right now? Its Sierra. She flipped her shit to Rob, calling him a bad ally and throwing quite a hissy fit. She thinks she should have been kidnapped. She's paranoid. She thinks JT has an idol of some major reward, and she thinks that she's outnumbered and this is all some big plot to wipe her out.

I wish it was!

Strategically, kidnapping her puts Fabio and Steph into a bad position. A VERY bad position. Austin JT and Heidi have had no issues voting together and not removing one of them from the voting pool means they hold majority. Steph has her vote changer, and that could save them, but damnit I don't want them to have to waste that nice reward if they don't need to. Sierra thinks she's on the outs and outnumbered. It makes sense I guess since the only original Weerlig on Current Brown is kidnapped... but the Middle Age Greenbeach (seriously I wish you had come up with new tribe names or something for the latest swap) group is far tighter than the original Aarde group. Voting with those sinking ships is pointless.

So, we kidnap Austin. Middle Weerlig has the numbers. Austin has not yet been kidnapped and has only one clue to receive as far as we know. Bringing him to Weerlig for a break ffrom Tribal makes sense. He's not getting voted out anyway, being the stronger Aarde competitor, and he may even be the one holding on to any rewards.

Anyway, Austin gets kidnapped and Sierra freaks out. She thinks she's the target and she reacts like a spoiled bitch that she didn't get her way and get kidnapped.

Monica was of course the one to suggest she be kidnapped. Stupid. It obviously puts Steph and Fab into a bad position and makes one of the two very likely to go. So of course I told Steph that Monica suggested kidnapping Sierra, and thankfully Steph has some damn sense and doesn't trust Monica and thinks Fabio trusts her too much. Yay Steph!

Sierra of course only cares about herself tho, and then preceeds to berate poor Rob. Tells him he's a bad ally, pushes him but not enough for him to snap back as she slinks further and further up my mental bootlist. I can't stand the fact that she's using Rob the way she is. He's a really nice guy and he's trying so damned hard to be honest and loyal and nice and helpful and he still gets this shit from people. Sierra is the one leaking information to Monica. Sierra is the one who had plans to stab her ally in the back at tribal.

So I stress this to Rob a bit. I don't think I ever expressly told him that Sierra had plans to flip and stab him, so I left that part out of my proposal for him to start backing the hell away from the snake very very slowly, no sudden movements.

I almost, ALMOST, used the situation as a sales pitch for a Brett-Steph-Fab-Rob alliance... but now isn't the time. Rob is still pretty vulnerable and is probably ready to snap under pressure. Fabio is too close to Monica for me to let him near Rob. And Steph... she's really pissed off at me.

I can't quite say I get it. She's upset I let her waste her time but I was never thinking about it like that because I was up all night, too. I was sinking time into the challenge, too. And it wouldn't have been fair to tell her what was going on, because it was hard for everyone to conceal what was happening from their friends. What would give me the right to be the one that gives it away?

I'm worried about the Steph situation a lot. I like her. I want her in the F4. But I don't know that I've been all that forthcoming or earned her trust to the point where this doesn't break it. I mean she seems to feel personally betrayed by me and if she starts questioning my loyalties I don't know if I've bought a tight enough bond with her for her to not start distancing me from herself.

Fabio took the trick news well, or at least BETTER... but I don't have a high level of confidence in him because he's just so close to Monica and obviously shares a lot of information with her.

Meh... I guess I feel like im working alone in this game sometimes... which is probably why I've been playing a little oddly for me... I don't know.

Well whatever. Final 10, probably merging! Plenty more to look forward to.

[Amanda Kimmel]

I can say these:
1. Steph has forgiven me. She was very mature about it when I talked to her.
2. Rob lied to Sierra that I deleted one of his posts at Weerlig camp. He's in trouble, to say the least.

[Brett Clouser]

Nov 23, 2010 9:24:15 GMT -5 Amanda Kimmel said:

I can say these:
1. Steph has forgiven me. She was very mature about it when I talked to her.
2. Rob lied to Sierra that I deleted one of his posts at Weerlig camp. He's in trouble, to say the least.

1. That's good...I'm just worried she'll still be pissed at me... :/
2. He was probably trying to save his own ass since he really thought he posted in the thread. Have fun dealing with him though!

[Brett Clouser]

Talked to Steph. She seems to be only a little pissed off now. She says she's not mad anymore but I get the impression she's still HURT. Im about halfway between frustration and 100% completely understanding. Anyway, target is Heidi. They told Heidi its Sierra, and Sierra told her its Fab. I hope if someone over there is packing a reward they use it to take out Sierra. That would be a reasonable solution to that problem.

Talking to Fab and talking to Steph feels a bit strained right now... I would have laughed and then kicked myself and laughed some more had I been the one tricked... but not everyone handles things the same.

Oh and apparently Jt was Erinn last season, which I think makes sense. Dunno what that means for everyone else now that that's out.

[Brett Clouser]

Oh wow. I know Sierra! Wtf is with these people I know in this game? Seriously, i rarely go into a game knowing more than 2 people I didn't ask to play, but now namibia is like some kind of Psycho Reunion... seriously next think you're gonna tell me, Jenna was my best friend from high school and Scout was my old roomie.

I guess traveling in the same social circles is a big part of it... but im starting to think I know too many in this community and should play alias more often. It was never an issue when I didn't know people but now that I've played enough games I think its time.

Anyway, Sierra, know her. It was a weird moment when I connected the dots. One of those moments where you go "oooh okay" and everything makes complete sense. Sierra and I were in Can You Survive Japan together. She was Eliza, I was Christy. Im probably the most responsible for getting her out Week 1, because she started spouting so much total bullshit, spreading rumors, trying to form alliances with unwilling parties to fight against the alliances that only existed in her head.

She got outcasted back in, and sided with the side that sent her out, but she was easily swayed the week later to make an awful move. After that, for my final week we spoke to each other again and planned together, and while I ended up out she still takes my advice when I give it.

So I know how she is, and after I realized she was Sierra, I didn't hate Sierra very much anymore. She makes a hell of a lot more sense to me and I don't have any issues with her now that I know.

Surprise? I know a lot of people can't stand her but I'm not one of them. I think she's a good person, she just has the emotional stability of a 13 year old girl after her first breakup on a caffeine bender is all. She's a highly emotional player and easily swayed by someone she thinks is cool giving her any form of positive attention, but if you can make her see that she's being taken advantage of, you've got yourself on of the fiercest and most determined players around.

She's self centered, but not in an entirely bad way. Its not a narcissistic kind of self-centered, it's the kind of self centered where other peoples' thoughts and motives just sort of fly past her radar if they don't directly involve her in the way she thinks they will or should. And realizing who Sierra is makes me look at the shit she's pulled in that light and I can't fault her for being herself.

So now that I understand her I don't think im gunning for her anymore. I was scared as all hell that she would flip the fuck out at Tribal and one of my friends would be gone, because she was a wildcard and erratic... but she told me what happened at tribal. JT demanded that she vote with him and Heidi against Fabio, and she said she was going to, but instead she voted for Heidi, and changed JT's vote to Heidi, and JT, it turned out changed her vote to Fabio... so it ended up really close but really epic, and I'm happy things went the way they did.

Sierra is out for Austin and Jt now, and I'm fine with helping her in that fight. She's really proud of herself for holding up to the pressure and Im feeling about 99x better about things with her.

[Amanda Kimmel]

LOL yeah I was there for Eliza's drunken rampage XD

Yeah... and she flipped out on me too. I can't say I'm happy with her, but the details will remain a secret.

Any idea what'll happen come merge?

[Brett Clouser]

Nov 24, 2010 12:53:02 GMT -5 Amanda Kimmel said:

LOL yeah I was there for Eliza's drunken rampage XD

Yeah... and she flipped out on me too. I can't say I'm happy with her, but the details will remain a secret.

Any idea what'll happen come merge?

Lol yeah I know you were there and knowthat whole story. I'm just explaining for the sake of anyone else who might actually read this thing, though you're probably the only one.

...but hi Erik and Todd and Nat and player reading this after the boards open!


Yeah I wont push too much on the issue.


Merge... um... I get viciously blindsided by everyone and die? I really don't know what'll happen at this point, and if the challenge is what I think it is (tonga archive surfing ftw!) I can assume the next challenge is tribal rather than individual, so merge hasn't happened yet.

[Brett Clouser]

Oh, and before I abandon this over-long, brilliant piece of evidence as to why I need stable internet access or at least my ps2 set up that is entry 7, just want to note two things:

1. Steph seems to be getting a bit short with me when we talk.

2. Apparently there are rumors spreading about me.

Today Steph said something along the lines of" if Austin had such and such reward wouldn't he tell you?" Apparently she's heard that me and him are" really really tihgt" which is... bizarre since we've talked maybe twice. Pretty sure its a patented Sierra rumor. She told me last night that she thought I was with that Aarde group and me and Austin were going to team up and get her... so yeah. Now, I can dispell pretty much any rumor she's ever spread at this point by letting who she is slip, but that wouldn't be the smart thing to do or the fair thing.

Im just hoping that whatever Steph and Fab have heard hasn't sowed the seeds of doubt too deeply and I haven't lost this trust. I feel like I've sort of been put at arms length from them and its not a good feeling and it isn't fair. I didn't do anything wrong to them and I've been nothing if not loyal to them. Maybe not entirely honest, but certainly loyal.

[Amanda Kimmel]

By getting your PS2 set up... does that mean you got Persona 3? Ugh, I've been missing playing that... DAMN YOU JAMES JOYCE


Do you think you could make endgame with Steph and Fabio? What about Sierra?