Post by Sierra Reed on Nov 23, 2010 2:11:03 GMT -5
during JT's tribal council
there is no such thing as "Aarde".
i'll let you in on a little secret... there's no such thing as anyone here, either. steph, fabio... myself.
those people i liked, or worked with, untill now.
john. rob.
psh... "monica"... lol
there's no such thing as anything.
ItsFabioDude (10:27:40 PM): ok....,,, so your suspicions are true
ItsFabioDude (10:27:45 PM): Fab IO 9:25 pm
what do you think we should do?
Heidi 9:25 pm
i have no idea. the easiest vote would be for sierra
Fab IO 9:25 pm
only 5 of us here now....
k maybe, have you talked to JT I havent spoken to him since forever
Im sure he would vote Sierra
Heidi 9:26 pm
i havent talked to him lately but i'm sure he woudl too
ItsFabioDude (10:28:25 PM): shhhhh... dont tell heidi I told you anything
ItsFabioDude (10:28:42 PM): I want her to think I am ok with voting for you
sierrar66 (10:29:09 PM): nonon i wont
sierrar66 (10:29:10 PM): lol
sierrar66 (10:29:14 PM): i'm not gonna ruin my one chance
sierrar66 (10:29:24 PM): i know her and JT want me out
sierrar66 (10:29:30 PM): i just... really am gonna rely on you
you can't rely on anything. in a stupid fuckin world where nothing is as it seems and everything is shaky and just waiting to fall apart.
in a world that constantly feels like a rollercoaster.
i can't even rely on myself. i can't rely on the... institution.
when the world leaves you flopping around like a fish on the beach... starving for oxygen. and there's air all around you.
what am i supposed to do?
me and fab and steph sit around and congratulate ourselves for such like hard work and devotion and stuff? should we like sit in a circle and sing kumbaya and pat ourselves on the back?
ItsFabioDude (11:35:23 PM): so, this also means Heidi must have a vote changer, and JT doesnt he lost all his Dares
sierrar66 (11:35:42 PM): yeah
sierrar66 (11:35:45 PM): heidi must have one
ItsFabioDude (11:36:20 PM): I wonder if u change a vote change?
ItsFabioDude (11:36:22 PM): LOL
sierrar66 (11:36:33 PM): LOL
sierrar66 (11:36:35 PM): no idea
ItsFabioDude (11:36:45 PM): I should ask Amanda on that one
StephanieLaGrosa (11:36:54 PM): will she tell you?
ItsFabioDude (11:37:22 PM): ill ask, cause if we vote JT, and Heidi stays, she will use her vote changer the next round for sure
StephanieLaGrosa (11:37:30 PM): k
sierrar66 (11:38:06 PM): ya
sierrar66 (11:38:09 PM): good idea to ask her
ItsFabioDude (11:39:24 PM): Amanda isn't sure
StephanieLaGrosa (11:39:31 PM): about which part?
ItsFabioDude (11:39:51 PM): if a vote changer could change another vote changer
ItsFabioDude (11:40:01 PM): u cant make someone vote for themselves...
ItsFabioDude (11:40:52 PM): well thats my problem with keeping Heidi,, I think we will merge next round though
ItsFabioDude (11:41:21 PM): not sure if JT has anything
StephanieLaGrosa (11:41:32 PM): I dont' trust him though
StephanieLaGrosa (11:41:38 PM): I don't trust eihter of them
StephanieLaGrosa (11:41:54 PM): Sierra who were you close with on original Weerlig?
StephanieLaGrosa (11:42:04 PM): like what dirt can you give us
ItsFabioDude (11:42:08 PM): They need to think Sierra is going... or Heidi will use a vote changer
sierrar66 (11:42:11 PM): me?
StephanieLaGrosa (11:42:15 PM): yeh
sierrar66 (11:42:16 PM): i was close with monica and rob
ItsFabioDude (11:42:16 PM): LOL
sierrar66 (11:42:19 PM): but rob like...
sierrar66 (11:42:27 PM): well i mean they jsut both told me they were gonna kidnap me
sierrar66 (11:42:33 PM): because from the outside, to me when i first got here
sierrar66 (11:42:36 PM): i was like shit...
sierrar66 (11:42:40 PM): everyone is aarde, i'm fucked
sierrar66 (11:42:44 PM): so they told me they'd kidnap me
sierrar66 (11:42:49 PM): and then they kidnapped austin
sierrar66 (11:42:56 PM): so while i say i am close with rob and monica
sierrar66 (11:43:00 PM): how close am i really?
sierrar66 (11:43:19 PM): i trust monica the most
ItsFabioDude (11:43:23 PM): well, pretend you still trust Rob
sierrar66 (11:43:36 PM): be careful what u tell rob
sierrar66 (11:43:41 PM): nothing against him
ItsFabioDude (11:43:41 PM): even though he kinda screwed u on the kidnap
sierrar66 (11:43:46 PM): he's just... he's even more emotional then me
sierrar66 (11:44:00 PM): ya i'll pretend i trust him still
ItsFabioDude (11:45:31 PM): also, I think Austin may stay over there
ItsFabioDude (11:45:44 PM): according to what Sierra tells me
StephanieLaGrosa (11:45:56 PM): oh really?
sierrar66 (11:46:03 PM): well
sierrar66 (11:46:06 PM): i mean
sierrar66 (11:46:12 PM): i just think there is an alliance going on there
sierrar66 (11:46:20 PM): maybe brett and austin? and john? i dont know
StephanieLaGrosa (11:46:22 PM): i do too
sierrar66 (11:46:27 PM): i jsut feel like austin is a weird chice
sierrar66 (11:46:31 PM): they all said they'd kidnap me
sierrar66 (11:46:35 PM): but then they kidnapped austin
sierrar66 (11:46:42 PM): and it cant really be cause he's the weak person or anything
sierrar66 (11:46:55 PM): so, i dont know what the reasojn is, it's just suspicious seeming
ItsFabioDude (11:48:14 PM): me and Steph are telling Heidi right now we will vote you, so I dont think she will use a vote changer
sierrar66 (11:48:35 PM): that would be good if she didn't
sierrar66 (11:48:39 PM):
ItsFabioDude (11:48:40 PM): lol
sierrar66 (11:48:44 PM): what do u guys want me to do?
sierrar66 (11:48:47 PM): save my changer?
StephanieLaGrosa (11:51:22 PM): I would say yes
sierrar66 (11:51:39 PM): okie
StephanieLaGrosa (11:51:47 PM): I think we are doing a good job convincing Heidi we are voting you
ItsFabioDude (11:52:35 PM): good, so who do we vote?
ItsFabioDude (11:52:40 PM): JT or Heidi?
sierrar66 (11:54:18 PM): thnx you guys sooooooooooooooo much
sierrar66 (11:54:24 PM): really means the world to me
sierrar66 (11:54:34 PM): i'd rather vote heidi
sierrar66 (11:54:39 PM): to get the vote changer out of the game for sure
sierrar66 (11:55:10 PM): but it makes very little difference to me
StephanieLaGrosa (11:55:41 PM): what are the pros and cons of each?
sierrar66 (11:55:53 PM): ummmmmm...
sierrar66 (11:55:57 PM): is JT more active?
sierrar66 (11:56:00 PM): or more threatening?
ItsFabioDude (11:56:57 PM): and Heidi has a vote changer and I'm not really sure where stands
ItsFabioDude (11:57:29 PM): but I do know after this vote.
ItsFabioDude (11:57:38 PM): whoever is left wont trust us for sh%^$%^
StephanieLaGrosa (11:57:44 PM): nope
ItsFabioDude (11:57:49 PM): so who is a more dangerous enemy
sierrar66 (11:58:00 PM): well
StephanieLaGrosa (11:58:04 PM): that's just it - Heid is NEVER around
StephanieLaGrosa (11:58:15 PM): so I don't know
sierrar66 (11:58:22 PM): monica and rob and john and JJ all told me they wanted JT out
sierrar66 (11:58:25 PM): first at merge
ItsFabioDude (11:58:34 PM): JT aint around that much either, a little more than heidi though
sierrar66 (11:58:40 PM): i dont know abt brett
sierrar66 (11:58:54 PM): so it sounds like they'd all wanna vote JT out
ItsFabioDude (11:58:55 PM): Brett does this too
sierrar66 (11:58:56 PM): when they got the chance
sierrar66 (11:59:07 PM): brett wants JT out too?
ItsFabioDude (11:59:23 PM): at the merge I think
November 23, 2010
StephanieLaGrosa (12:00:07 AM): alright - we'll go for Heidi, then
ItsFabioDude (12:00:43 AM): k
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okay so maybe we sit around in a circle and conspire against the people who never showed up. instead of congratulating ourselves for doing so good maybe we sit there and bitch about how a couple other people didn't really help a whole lot.
we don't need to congratulate ourselves for our devotion, our motivation, our stamina.
we don't need any congratulations at all.
now we do we need a thanks, for our time.
congratulations don't exist.
Final score was something like 39 to 1. It wasn't even close. I also managed to snag three of them myself, so I too beat Aarde.
"fuckin hardy har har! Aarde sucks, go fuck yourselves" would have also sufficed.
i'd like to put my hands together for heidi and JT. without whom i could not make the following statement with any real DEVOTION!
POWER TO THE PEOPLE WHO SUCK
jesus what have i been doing all this time? i just had my eyes opened up to something!
this is not the way to succeed. all this... effort. and all this determination.
it's all been going in the completely wrong direction!
the institution doesn't exist.
how could i be so blind? tara, you were right all along.
fuck these people, fuck this shit, i'm good.
ahollywoodslayer (12:43:20 AM): lemme sign on as JT
sierrar66 (12:43:24 AM): she's not voting for herself this round
sierrar66 (12:43:24 AM):
ahollywoodslayer (12:44:50 AM): Who is Fabio and Steph voting?
sierrar66 (12:45:42 AM): i dont know yet
sierrar66 (12:45:51 AM): steph is pissy like me about amanda
sierrar66 (12:45:57 AM): i think we'll vote together tho
ahollywoodslayer (12:46:08 AM): hmm u cant tell her about the vote if we're voting Fabio
sierrar66 (12:46:16 AM): can itrust this?
ahollywoodslayer (12:46:37 AM): Why would I just randomly ask you to vote one of MY OWN MEMBERS OF MY ORIGINAL TRIBE?
ahollywoodslayer (12:46:53 AM): I'm willing to vote someone from my tribe and you think I'm bullshitting lol
ahollywoodslayer (12:47:22 AM): I was told by Heidi that they were all voting you, and thats why I came on to reveal who I am so you could trust me.
ahollywoodslayer (12:47:43 AM): and plus, if I lied to you, you could go all around telling the people who I am
ahollywoodslayer (12:47:51 AM): which could ruin my game, but I have trust in you
sierrar66 (12:48:00 AM): ya i know, i know...
so she... or HE... JT wants me to vote fabio.
heidi strobel (cslaterxo) is available 2:22 am
Jen: *watching whip my hair video* is this a new trend that I just don't know about yet? 10d and 1h ago Comment
sierrar66 2:22 am
(2:22:21 AM): hey heidi
heidi strobel 2:22 am
(2:22:26 AM): Hey girl!
(2:22:28 AM): How are you )
(2:22:30 AM): *
sierrar66 2:22 am
(2:22:38 AM): i'm all right
(2:22:43 AM): lol a bit nervous, i'm good tho
heidi strobel 2:22 am
(2:22:47 AM): me too
(2:22:48 AM): :-\
sierrar66 2:23 am
(2:23:06 AM): i talked to JT
(2:23:11 AM): a bunch, just a bit ago
heidi strobel 2:23 am
(2:23:20 AM): yeah he told me he had talked to you ab it
(2:23:45 AM): *a bit
(2:23:48 AM): sry i cant type lol
sierrar66 2:24 am
(2:24:02 AM): lol no prob, i'm exhausted i'm probly nota lot better
heidi strobel 2:24 am
(2:24:12 AM): lol what are you thinking of doing for the vote
sierrar66 2:25 am
(2:25:32 AM): ummm
(2:25:41 AM): well i wanna go with JT kinda
(2:25:50 AM): but i'm just nervous to say anything really
(2:25:52 AM): :-P
heidi strobel 2:26 am
(2:26:08 AM): lol i know what you mjean
(2:26:09 AM): *mean
sierrar66 2:26 am
(2:26:13 AM): he wants to vote fabio
(2:26:23 AM): which i'm good with doing
(2:26:40 AM): i guess :-P
(2:26:49 AM): i didn't expect tribal council at all
heidi strobel 2:27 am
(2:27:05 AM): yeah i know. i feel like people are voting me and i'm not even a threat :-\
sierrar66 2:27 am
(2:27:35 AM): yeah, i know, and obviously i've heard my name too
(2:27:49 AM): but we dont just have to like vote eachother...... as JT kinda pointed out to me lol
heidi strobel 2:28 am
(2:28:14 AM): right
(2:28:21 AM): like fabio and steph intimidate me
sierrar66 2:28 am
(2:28:39 AM): they intimidate me kinda :-\
heidi strobel 2:28 am
(2:28:52 AM): like i was in last season with them but i was out really early in the game.
(2:28:58 AM): so i know they're good competitors
sierrar66 2:29 am
(2:29:00 AM): i see
(2:29:07 AM): JT said steph won last season =-O
heidi strobel 2:29 am
(2:29:12 AM): she did
sierrar66 2:29 am
(2:29:18 AM): this is my first time here personally
(2:29:21 AM): wow
(2:29:32 AM): all right, well i'm down
sierrar66 2:29 am
(2:29:45 AM): do i need to use a vote changer thing?
(2:29:50 AM): from last challenge?
(2:29:52 AM): do u think?
heidi strobel 2:29 am
(2:29:56 AM): hm
(2:30:24 AM): i would just in case
(2:30:36 AM): because if we can split them up now i think we'll be ok if we go to tribal again
(2:30:46 AM): because me you and jt can just vote out austin or steph
sierrar66 2:30 am
(2:30:55 AM): ya
(2:30:58 AM): well if they're voting me
(2:31:04 AM): i also have a double vote nullifier
(2:31:08 AM): which is like automatic
(2:31:15 AM): so, it'll kill their two votes
heidi strobel 2:31 am
(2:31:21 AM): ooh thats cool
sierrar66 2:31 am
(2:31:24 AM): so i may use the vote changer thing, i may not :-P
heidi strobel 2:31 am
(2:31:54 AM): well i would just maybe use the vote nullifier
(2:31:58 AM): and not the vote changer.
sierrar66 2:31 am
(2:31:59 AM): but ya... i'm gonna vote fabio and hopefully things will work out at merge :-\
heidi strobel 2:32 am
(2:32:01 AM): I wouldn't use both
sierrar66 2:32 am
(2:32:08 AM): ya that's probly what 'll do
(2:32:13 AM): makes more sense
heidi strobel 2:32 am
(2:32:29 AM): Yeah that way if you need the other down the road you'll have it still
sierrar66 2:32 am
(2:32:34 AM): hehehe :-)
sierrar66 2:34 am
(2:34:02 AM): sounds good, i'm a little less worried. i gotta go to bed, i jsut wanted to actualyl talk to you as well abt it before i voted
(2:34:53 AM): many many thnx to u and JT!!! i thought i was screwed just cause the tribe was all original Aarde ppl !
heidi strobel 2:35 am
(2:35:39 AM): i know, i dont really trust half of them though
(2:35:43 AM): i do trust you thougH :-)
(2:35:48 AM): so you're fine you dont have to worry :-)
sierrar66 2:37 am
(2:37:29 AM): awesome!!!!
(2:37:37 AM): i dont know barely anyone
sierrar66 2:37 am
(2:37:48 AM): so, just nice to have someone ... lol, ttyl :-)
heidi strobel 2:37 am
(2:37:51 AM): i dont really either. just those i've been on a tribe with and i dont like some of them lol
(2:37:54 AM): nite :-) sweet dreams
sierrar66 2:38 am
(2:38:00 AM): hehe yep you too!!!
heidi strobel 2:38 am
(2:38:05 AM): thanks :-)
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and heidi seems to think the votes from fabio and steph are going to be on me, as she should believe.
and heidi, too, seems to want to vote fabio.
why fabio? here was here. he was playing. ALL night long!!!
exactly. and i was here for 16 hours straight. and if it's not fabio, it's going to sure as shit be me.
one of us, VERY VERY VERY VERY active people... VERY active people... are going out this round.
no. matter. what.
sierrar66 (12:56:15 AM): why fabio?
sierrar66 (12:56:16 AM): LOL
ahollywoodslayer (12:56:25 AM): Hes a sneaky bitch
ahollywoodslayer (12:56:30 AM): always double plays
sierrar66 (12:57:18 AM): ya?
sierrar66 (12:57:24 AM): all right well you would know
ahollywoodslayer (12:57:29 AM): mhm
sierrar66 (12:57:38 AM): oh my fuckin lord thank goodness for you
ahollywoodslayer (12:58:10 AM):
ahollywoodslayer (12:58:16 AM): ikr
ahollywoodslayer (12:58:25 AM): just vote Fabio and we all sing happy
sierrar66 (12:58:54 AM): how do u feel abt monica?
ahollywoodslayer (12:59:33 AM): shes a rat
ahollywoodslayer (12:59:38 AM): Always has been
sierrar66 (12:59:40 AM): okie
sierrar66 (12:59:42 AM): i thought so
sierrar66 (12:59:49 AM): i love her... or him i mean
sierrar66 (12:59:52 AM): but i could never trust him
sierrar66 (1:00:14 AM): so for the sake of my confessionals
sierrar66 (1:00:23 AM): this alliance thing is... you, me,...
sierrar66 (1:00:25 AM): austin
sierrar66 (1:00:30 AM): someone else?
ahollywoodslayer (1:00:37 AM): HEIDI
sierrar66 (1:00:37 AM): lol and steph sorta?
sierrar66 (1:00:41 AM): oh ya heidi
sierrar66 (1:00:47 AM): you know monica thinks heidi is with her
sierrar66 (1:00:56 AM):
ahollywoodslayer (1:01:03 AM): and Monica thinks im with her too,
ahollywoodslayer (1:01:04 AM): lol
sierrar66 (1:01:27 AM): good
sierrar66 (1:01:38 AM): ya she said she could get you to vote like... however she wants
sierrar66 (1:01:42 AM): u and heidi
ahollywoodslayer (1:01:51 AM): bwahahaah
sierrar66 (1:01:53 AM): same with steph and fab
sierrar66 (1:01:57 AM): same with john and rob
sierrar66 (1:02:00 AM): god
sierrar66 (1:02:04 AM): whatever
ahollywoodslayer (1:02:05 AM): yea I know
sierrar66 (1:02:08 AM): okay so
ahollywoodslayer (1:02:11 AM): so come merge, shes gone
sierrar66 (1:02:11 AM): this is what i have
sierrar66 (1:02:18 AM): i have an auto double vote nullifier
sierrar66 (1:02:25 AM): and a change vote thing
sierrar66 (1:02:51 AM): tried to talk darrah into not using rob's idol that round, but she was like intent on that whole play to make you and her seem seperated
sierrar66 (1:02:59 AM): otherwise we'd have more stuff
sierrar66 (1:03:09 AM): obviously u know heidi also has a vote changer
sierrar66 (1:03:24 AM): and so does jimmy johnson and someone else
ahollywoodslayer (1:03:26 AM): how r people getting these
sierrar66 (1:03:33 AM): i got mine fro mthe puzzle reward challenge
sierrar66 (1:03:40 AM): my double nullifier thing
sierrar66 (1:03:46 AM): which gets played without me even syaing it
sierrar66 (1:03:54 AM): and i got my vote changer in the last immunity challenge
ahollywoodslayer (1:11:28 AM): Steph won last game
ahollywoodslayer (1:11:30 AM): thats a threat
sierrar66 (1:11:37 AM): okie...
sierrar66 (1:11:48 AM): i dont care enough to fight too hard for her
sierrar66 (1:11:59 AM): i said my piece abt it, that's neough
ahollywoodslayer (1:12:17 AM): lol
ahollywoodslayer (1:12:28 AM): im voting Fabio, Heidi is as well, after being told to vote for you apparently
ahollywoodslayer (1:12:43 AM): soo, Fabio leaves, and after that, we just win challenges.
sierrar66 (1:13:04 AM): that's so bizarre
sierrar66 (1:13:10 AM): that heidi wants to vote fab
sierrar66 (1:13:13 AM): okie well
sierrar66 (1:13:24 AM): they both wanna vote heidi
sierrar66 (1:13:32 AM): dont be the death of me tara
sierrar66 (1:13:42 AM): especially when i was abt to kill msyelf in the game nayway
ahollywoodslayer (1:13:49 AM): lmao so we voting Fabio?
sierrar66 (1:14:00 AM): yeah
sierrar66 (1:14:07 AM): is three votes enough?
sierrar66 (1:14:13 AM): like u know for sure heidi is gonna vote fab?
ahollywoodslayer (1:15:01 AM): I think she would if she has nothing else to loose
ahollywoodslayer (1:15:03 AM): lose*
ahollywoodslayer (1:15:03 AM): lol
sierrar66 (1:15:36 AM): okay...
sierrar66 (1:15:45 AM): do you know her or anything?
sierrar66 (1:15:49 AM): like that would be really nice
sierrar66 (1:16:00 AM): i have a hard time trusting that she'll vote fab
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:03 AM): Yes I know her
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:07 AM): and she will vote Fabio
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:10 AM): I dont know KNOW her
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:16 AM): but I've played with her numerous of times
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:20 AM): besides, she thinks im a guy
sierrar66 (1:17:21 AM): okie cool
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:22 AM): so I've been flirting
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:23 AM): lmfao
sierrar66 (1:17:25 AM): good enough for me
sierrar66 (1:17:31 AM): should i use a vote changer?
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:36 AM): no
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:39 AM): thats a waste
sierrar66 (1:17:42 AM): okie cool
ahollywoodslayer (1:37:35 AM): we're good.
sierrar66 (1:37:40 AM): awesome
sierrar66 (1:37:44 AM): we can use it at merge
sierrar66 (1:37:48 AM): plus heidi has one too
ahollywoodslayer (1:37:48 AM): against monica
ahollywoodslayer (1:37:49 AM): <3
sierrar66 (1:37:55 AM): you know
sierrar66 (1:37:58 AM): i put in ym confessional
sierrar66 (1:38:06 AM): that i SWORE JT had the reward from the puzzle
sierrar66 (1:38:12 AM): and i was not happy abt it
sierrar66 (1:38:21 AM): now that i know ur JT i wish i'd been right
ahollywoodslayer (1:38:47 AM): haha no I dont
sierrar66 (1:42:31 AM):
ahollywoodslayer (1:42:39 AM): kk goodnight<3 going to bed
sierrar66 (1:42:41 AM): thnx for helping me
sierrar66 (1:42:44 AM): me too, night
ahollywoodslayer (1:42:47 AM): night nite
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you notice how she talks to me. just tells me what to do.
that simple. there's like no feeling behind it. tara you're pretty but you're dead behind the eyes.
everything is dead.
should i feel bad for a withering universe? for a poisonous atmosphere? for a pointless existence?
i refuse to feel bad for steph or fabio. i refuse to feel bad for myself, or for my giving into the most sensible demise i can see.
i refuse to feel bad for a system that's broken and an institution that doesn't exist.
and for the record, i will never trust tara. at all. not an ounce of faith.
but i'll walk the slaughter for my devotion.
there is no such thing as "Aarde".
i'll let you in on a little secret... there's no such thing as anyone here, either. steph, fabio... myself.
those people i liked, or worked with, untill now.
john. rob.
psh... "monica"... lol
there's no such thing as anything.
ItsFabioDude (10:27:40 PM): ok....,,, so your suspicions are true
ItsFabioDude (10:27:45 PM): Fab IO 9:25 pm
what do you think we should do?
Heidi 9:25 pm
i have no idea. the easiest vote would be for sierra
Fab IO 9:25 pm
only 5 of us here now....
k maybe, have you talked to JT I havent spoken to him since forever
Im sure he would vote Sierra
Heidi 9:26 pm
i havent talked to him lately but i'm sure he woudl too
ItsFabioDude (10:28:25 PM): shhhhh... dont tell heidi I told you anything
ItsFabioDude (10:28:42 PM): I want her to think I am ok with voting for you
sierrar66 (10:29:09 PM): nonon i wont
sierrar66 (10:29:10 PM): lol
sierrar66 (10:29:14 PM): i'm not gonna ruin my one chance
sierrar66 (10:29:24 PM): i know her and JT want me out
sierrar66 (10:29:30 PM): i just... really am gonna rely on you
you can't rely on anything. in a stupid fuckin world where nothing is as it seems and everything is shaky and just waiting to fall apart.
in a world that constantly feels like a rollercoaster.
i can't even rely on myself. i can't rely on the... institution.
when the world leaves you flopping around like a fish on the beach... starving for oxygen. and there's air all around you.
what am i supposed to do?
me and fab and steph sit around and congratulate ourselves for such like hard work and devotion and stuff? should we like sit in a circle and sing kumbaya and pat ourselves on the back?
ItsFabioDude (11:35:23 PM): so, this also means Heidi must have a vote changer, and JT doesnt he lost all his Dares
sierrar66 (11:35:42 PM): yeah
sierrar66 (11:35:45 PM): heidi must have one
ItsFabioDude (11:36:20 PM): I wonder if u change a vote change?
ItsFabioDude (11:36:22 PM): LOL
sierrar66 (11:36:33 PM): LOL
sierrar66 (11:36:35 PM): no idea
ItsFabioDude (11:36:45 PM): I should ask Amanda on that one
StephanieLaGrosa (11:36:54 PM): will she tell you?
ItsFabioDude (11:37:22 PM): ill ask, cause if we vote JT, and Heidi stays, she will use her vote changer the next round for sure
StephanieLaGrosa (11:37:30 PM): k
sierrar66 (11:38:06 PM): ya
sierrar66 (11:38:09 PM): good idea to ask her
ItsFabioDude (11:39:24 PM): Amanda isn't sure
StephanieLaGrosa (11:39:31 PM): about which part?
ItsFabioDude (11:39:51 PM): if a vote changer could change another vote changer
ItsFabioDude (11:40:01 PM): u cant make someone vote for themselves...
ItsFabioDude (11:40:52 PM): well thats my problem with keeping Heidi,, I think we will merge next round though
ItsFabioDude (11:41:21 PM): not sure if JT has anything
StephanieLaGrosa (11:41:32 PM): I dont' trust him though
StephanieLaGrosa (11:41:38 PM): I don't trust eihter of them
StephanieLaGrosa (11:41:54 PM): Sierra who were you close with on original Weerlig?
StephanieLaGrosa (11:42:04 PM): like what dirt can you give us
ItsFabioDude (11:42:08 PM): They need to think Sierra is going... or Heidi will use a vote changer
sierrar66 (11:42:11 PM): me?
StephanieLaGrosa (11:42:15 PM): yeh
sierrar66 (11:42:16 PM): i was close with monica and rob
ItsFabioDude (11:42:16 PM): LOL
sierrar66 (11:42:19 PM): but rob like...
sierrar66 (11:42:27 PM): well i mean they jsut both told me they were gonna kidnap me
sierrar66 (11:42:33 PM): because from the outside, to me when i first got here
sierrar66 (11:42:36 PM): i was like shit...
sierrar66 (11:42:40 PM): everyone is aarde, i'm fucked
sierrar66 (11:42:44 PM): so they told me they'd kidnap me
sierrar66 (11:42:49 PM): and then they kidnapped austin
sierrar66 (11:42:56 PM): so while i say i am close with rob and monica
sierrar66 (11:43:00 PM): how close am i really?
sierrar66 (11:43:19 PM): i trust monica the most
ItsFabioDude (11:43:23 PM): well, pretend you still trust Rob
sierrar66 (11:43:36 PM): be careful what u tell rob
sierrar66 (11:43:41 PM): nothing against him
ItsFabioDude (11:43:41 PM): even though he kinda screwed u on the kidnap
sierrar66 (11:43:46 PM): he's just... he's even more emotional then me
sierrar66 (11:44:00 PM): ya i'll pretend i trust him still
ItsFabioDude (11:45:31 PM): also, I think Austin may stay over there
ItsFabioDude (11:45:44 PM): according to what Sierra tells me
StephanieLaGrosa (11:45:56 PM): oh really?
sierrar66 (11:46:03 PM): well
sierrar66 (11:46:06 PM): i mean
sierrar66 (11:46:12 PM): i just think there is an alliance going on there
sierrar66 (11:46:20 PM): maybe brett and austin? and john? i dont know
StephanieLaGrosa (11:46:22 PM): i do too
sierrar66 (11:46:27 PM): i jsut feel like austin is a weird chice
sierrar66 (11:46:31 PM): they all said they'd kidnap me
sierrar66 (11:46:35 PM): but then they kidnapped austin
sierrar66 (11:46:42 PM): and it cant really be cause he's the weak person or anything
sierrar66 (11:46:55 PM): so, i dont know what the reasojn is, it's just suspicious seeming
ItsFabioDude (11:48:14 PM): me and Steph are telling Heidi right now we will vote you, so I dont think she will use a vote changer
sierrar66 (11:48:35 PM): that would be good if she didn't
sierrar66 (11:48:39 PM):
ItsFabioDude (11:48:40 PM): lol
sierrar66 (11:48:44 PM): what do u guys want me to do?
sierrar66 (11:48:47 PM): save my changer?
StephanieLaGrosa (11:51:22 PM): I would say yes
sierrar66 (11:51:39 PM): okie
StephanieLaGrosa (11:51:47 PM): I think we are doing a good job convincing Heidi we are voting you
ItsFabioDude (11:52:35 PM): good, so who do we vote?
ItsFabioDude (11:52:40 PM): JT or Heidi?
sierrar66 (11:54:18 PM): thnx you guys sooooooooooooooo much
sierrar66 (11:54:24 PM): really means the world to me
sierrar66 (11:54:34 PM): i'd rather vote heidi
sierrar66 (11:54:39 PM): to get the vote changer out of the game for sure
sierrar66 (11:55:10 PM): but it makes very little difference to me
StephanieLaGrosa (11:55:41 PM): what are the pros and cons of each?
sierrar66 (11:55:53 PM): ummmmmm...
sierrar66 (11:55:57 PM): is JT more active?
sierrar66 (11:56:00 PM): or more threatening?
ItsFabioDude (11:56:57 PM): and Heidi has a vote changer and I'm not really sure where stands
ItsFabioDude (11:57:29 PM): but I do know after this vote.
ItsFabioDude (11:57:38 PM): whoever is left wont trust us for sh%^$%^
StephanieLaGrosa (11:57:44 PM): nope
ItsFabioDude (11:57:49 PM): so who is a more dangerous enemy
sierrar66 (11:58:00 PM): well
StephanieLaGrosa (11:58:04 PM): that's just it - Heid is NEVER around
StephanieLaGrosa (11:58:15 PM): so I don't know
sierrar66 (11:58:22 PM): monica and rob and john and JJ all told me they wanted JT out
sierrar66 (11:58:25 PM): first at merge
ItsFabioDude (11:58:34 PM): JT aint around that much either, a little more than heidi though
sierrar66 (11:58:40 PM): i dont know abt brett
sierrar66 (11:58:54 PM): so it sounds like they'd all wanna vote JT out
ItsFabioDude (11:58:55 PM): Brett does this too
sierrar66 (11:58:56 PM): when they got the chance
sierrar66 (11:59:07 PM): brett wants JT out too?
ItsFabioDude (11:59:23 PM): at the merge I think
November 23, 2010
StephanieLaGrosa (12:00:07 AM): alright - we'll go for Heidi, then
ItsFabioDude (12:00:43 AM): k
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okay so maybe we sit around in a circle and conspire against the people who never showed up. instead of congratulating ourselves for doing so good maybe we sit there and bitch about how a couple other people didn't really help a whole lot.
we don't need to congratulate ourselves for our devotion, our motivation, our stamina.
we don't need any congratulations at all.
now we do we need a thanks, for our time.
congratulations don't exist.
Final score was something like 39 to 1. It wasn't even close. I also managed to snag three of them myself, so I too beat Aarde.
"fuckin hardy har har! Aarde sucks, go fuck yourselves" would have also sufficed.
i'd like to put my hands together for heidi and JT. without whom i could not make the following statement with any real DEVOTION!
POWER TO THE PEOPLE WHO SUCK
jesus what have i been doing all this time? i just had my eyes opened up to something!
this is not the way to succeed. all this... effort. and all this determination.
it's all been going in the completely wrong direction!
the institution doesn't exist.
how could i be so blind? tara, you were right all along.
fuck these people, fuck this shit, i'm good.
ahollywoodslayer (12:43:20 AM): lemme sign on as JT
sierrar66 (12:43:24 AM): she's not voting for herself this round
sierrar66 (12:43:24 AM):
ahollywoodslayer (12:44:50 AM): Who is Fabio and Steph voting?
sierrar66 (12:45:42 AM): i dont know yet
sierrar66 (12:45:51 AM): steph is pissy like me about amanda
sierrar66 (12:45:57 AM): i think we'll vote together tho
ahollywoodslayer (12:46:08 AM): hmm u cant tell her about the vote if we're voting Fabio
sierrar66 (12:46:16 AM): can itrust this?
ahollywoodslayer (12:46:37 AM): Why would I just randomly ask you to vote one of MY OWN MEMBERS OF MY ORIGINAL TRIBE?
ahollywoodslayer (12:46:53 AM): I'm willing to vote someone from my tribe and you think I'm bullshitting lol
ahollywoodslayer (12:47:22 AM): I was told by Heidi that they were all voting you, and thats why I came on to reveal who I am so you could trust me.
ahollywoodslayer (12:47:43 AM): and plus, if I lied to you, you could go all around telling the people who I am
ahollywoodslayer (12:47:51 AM): which could ruin my game, but I have trust in you
sierrar66 (12:48:00 AM): ya i know, i know...
so she... or HE... JT wants me to vote fabio.
heidi strobel (cslaterxo) is available 2:22 am
Jen: *watching whip my hair video* is this a new trend that I just don't know about yet? 10d and 1h ago Comment
sierrar66 2:22 am
(2:22:21 AM): hey heidi
heidi strobel 2:22 am
(2:22:26 AM): Hey girl!
(2:22:28 AM): How are you )
(2:22:30 AM): *
sierrar66 2:22 am
(2:22:38 AM): i'm all right
(2:22:43 AM): lol a bit nervous, i'm good tho
heidi strobel 2:22 am
(2:22:47 AM): me too
(2:22:48 AM): :-\
sierrar66 2:23 am
(2:23:06 AM): i talked to JT
(2:23:11 AM): a bunch, just a bit ago
heidi strobel 2:23 am
(2:23:20 AM): yeah he told me he had talked to you ab it
(2:23:45 AM): *a bit
(2:23:48 AM): sry i cant type lol
sierrar66 2:24 am
(2:24:02 AM): lol no prob, i'm exhausted i'm probly nota lot better
heidi strobel 2:24 am
(2:24:12 AM): lol what are you thinking of doing for the vote
sierrar66 2:25 am
(2:25:32 AM): ummm
(2:25:41 AM): well i wanna go with JT kinda
(2:25:50 AM): but i'm just nervous to say anything really
(2:25:52 AM): :-P
heidi strobel 2:26 am
(2:26:08 AM): lol i know what you mjean
(2:26:09 AM): *mean
sierrar66 2:26 am
(2:26:13 AM): he wants to vote fabio
(2:26:23 AM): which i'm good with doing
(2:26:40 AM): i guess :-P
(2:26:49 AM): i didn't expect tribal council at all
heidi strobel 2:27 am
(2:27:05 AM): yeah i know. i feel like people are voting me and i'm not even a threat :-\
sierrar66 2:27 am
(2:27:35 AM): yeah, i know, and obviously i've heard my name too
(2:27:49 AM): but we dont just have to like vote eachother...... as JT kinda pointed out to me lol
heidi strobel 2:28 am
(2:28:14 AM): right
(2:28:21 AM): like fabio and steph intimidate me
sierrar66 2:28 am
(2:28:39 AM): they intimidate me kinda :-\
heidi strobel 2:28 am
(2:28:52 AM): like i was in last season with them but i was out really early in the game.
(2:28:58 AM): so i know they're good competitors
sierrar66 2:29 am
(2:29:00 AM): i see
(2:29:07 AM): JT said steph won last season =-O
heidi strobel 2:29 am
(2:29:12 AM): she did
sierrar66 2:29 am
(2:29:18 AM): this is my first time here personally
(2:29:21 AM): wow
(2:29:32 AM): all right, well i'm down
sierrar66 2:29 am
(2:29:45 AM): do i need to use a vote changer thing?
(2:29:50 AM): from last challenge?
(2:29:52 AM): do u think?
heidi strobel 2:29 am
(2:29:56 AM): hm
(2:30:24 AM): i would just in case
(2:30:36 AM): because if we can split them up now i think we'll be ok if we go to tribal again
(2:30:46 AM): because me you and jt can just vote out austin or steph
sierrar66 2:30 am
(2:30:55 AM): ya
(2:30:58 AM): well if they're voting me
(2:31:04 AM): i also have a double vote nullifier
(2:31:08 AM): which is like automatic
(2:31:15 AM): so, it'll kill their two votes
heidi strobel 2:31 am
(2:31:21 AM): ooh thats cool
sierrar66 2:31 am
(2:31:24 AM): so i may use the vote changer thing, i may not :-P
heidi strobel 2:31 am
(2:31:54 AM): well i would just maybe use the vote nullifier
(2:31:58 AM): and not the vote changer.
sierrar66 2:31 am
(2:31:59 AM): but ya... i'm gonna vote fabio and hopefully things will work out at merge :-\
heidi strobel 2:32 am
(2:32:01 AM): I wouldn't use both
sierrar66 2:32 am
(2:32:08 AM): ya that's probly what 'll do
(2:32:13 AM): makes more sense
heidi strobel 2:32 am
(2:32:29 AM): Yeah that way if you need the other down the road you'll have it still
sierrar66 2:32 am
(2:32:34 AM): hehehe :-)
sierrar66 2:34 am
(2:34:02 AM): sounds good, i'm a little less worried. i gotta go to bed, i jsut wanted to actualyl talk to you as well abt it before i voted
(2:34:53 AM): many many thnx to u and JT!!! i thought i was screwed just cause the tribe was all original Aarde ppl !
heidi strobel 2:35 am
(2:35:39 AM): i know, i dont really trust half of them though
(2:35:43 AM): i do trust you thougH :-)
(2:35:48 AM): so you're fine you dont have to worry :-)
sierrar66 2:37 am
(2:37:29 AM): awesome!!!!
(2:37:37 AM): i dont know barely anyone
sierrar66 2:37 am
(2:37:48 AM): so, just nice to have someone ... lol, ttyl :-)
heidi strobel 2:37 am
(2:37:51 AM): i dont really either. just those i've been on a tribe with and i dont like some of them lol
(2:37:54 AM): nite :-) sweet dreams
sierrar66 2:38 am
(2:38:00 AM): hehe yep you too!!!
heidi strobel 2:38 am
(2:38:05 AM): thanks :-)
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and heidi seems to think the votes from fabio and steph are going to be on me, as she should believe.
and heidi, too, seems to want to vote fabio.
why fabio? here was here. he was playing. ALL night long!!!
exactly. and i was here for 16 hours straight. and if it's not fabio, it's going to sure as shit be me.
one of us, VERY VERY VERY VERY active people... VERY active people... are going out this round.
no. matter. what.
sierrar66 (12:56:15 AM): why fabio?
sierrar66 (12:56:16 AM): LOL
ahollywoodslayer (12:56:25 AM): Hes a sneaky bitch
ahollywoodslayer (12:56:30 AM): always double plays
sierrar66 (12:57:18 AM): ya?
sierrar66 (12:57:24 AM): all right well you would know
ahollywoodslayer (12:57:29 AM): mhm
sierrar66 (12:57:38 AM): oh my fuckin lord thank goodness for you
ahollywoodslayer (12:58:10 AM):
ahollywoodslayer (12:58:16 AM): ikr
ahollywoodslayer (12:58:25 AM): just vote Fabio and we all sing happy
sierrar66 (12:58:54 AM): how do u feel abt monica?
ahollywoodslayer (12:59:33 AM): shes a rat
ahollywoodslayer (12:59:38 AM): Always has been
sierrar66 (12:59:40 AM): okie
sierrar66 (12:59:42 AM): i thought so
sierrar66 (12:59:49 AM): i love her... or him i mean
sierrar66 (12:59:52 AM): but i could never trust him
sierrar66 (1:00:14 AM): so for the sake of my confessionals
sierrar66 (1:00:23 AM): this alliance thing is... you, me,...
sierrar66 (1:00:25 AM): austin
sierrar66 (1:00:30 AM): someone else?
ahollywoodslayer (1:00:37 AM): HEIDI
sierrar66 (1:00:37 AM): lol and steph sorta?
sierrar66 (1:00:41 AM): oh ya heidi
sierrar66 (1:00:47 AM): you know monica thinks heidi is with her
sierrar66 (1:00:56 AM):
ahollywoodslayer (1:01:03 AM): and Monica thinks im with her too,
ahollywoodslayer (1:01:04 AM): lol
sierrar66 (1:01:27 AM): good
sierrar66 (1:01:38 AM): ya she said she could get you to vote like... however she wants
sierrar66 (1:01:42 AM): u and heidi
ahollywoodslayer (1:01:51 AM): bwahahaah
sierrar66 (1:01:53 AM): same with steph and fab
sierrar66 (1:01:57 AM): same with john and rob
sierrar66 (1:02:00 AM): god
sierrar66 (1:02:04 AM): whatever
ahollywoodslayer (1:02:05 AM): yea I know
sierrar66 (1:02:08 AM): okay so
ahollywoodslayer (1:02:11 AM): so come merge, shes gone
sierrar66 (1:02:11 AM): this is what i have
sierrar66 (1:02:18 AM): i have an auto double vote nullifier
sierrar66 (1:02:25 AM): and a change vote thing
sierrar66 (1:02:51 AM): tried to talk darrah into not using rob's idol that round, but she was like intent on that whole play to make you and her seem seperated
sierrar66 (1:02:59 AM): otherwise we'd have more stuff
sierrar66 (1:03:09 AM): obviously u know heidi also has a vote changer
sierrar66 (1:03:24 AM): and so does jimmy johnson and someone else
ahollywoodslayer (1:03:26 AM): how r people getting these
sierrar66 (1:03:33 AM): i got mine fro mthe puzzle reward challenge
sierrar66 (1:03:40 AM): my double nullifier thing
sierrar66 (1:03:46 AM): which gets played without me even syaing it
sierrar66 (1:03:54 AM): and i got my vote changer in the last immunity challenge
ahollywoodslayer (1:11:28 AM): Steph won last game
ahollywoodslayer (1:11:30 AM): thats a threat
sierrar66 (1:11:37 AM): okie...
sierrar66 (1:11:48 AM): i dont care enough to fight too hard for her
sierrar66 (1:11:59 AM): i said my piece abt it, that's neough
ahollywoodslayer (1:12:17 AM): lol
ahollywoodslayer (1:12:28 AM): im voting Fabio, Heidi is as well, after being told to vote for you apparently
ahollywoodslayer (1:12:43 AM): soo, Fabio leaves, and after that, we just win challenges.
sierrar66 (1:13:04 AM): that's so bizarre
sierrar66 (1:13:10 AM): that heidi wants to vote fab
sierrar66 (1:13:13 AM): okie well
sierrar66 (1:13:24 AM): they both wanna vote heidi
sierrar66 (1:13:32 AM): dont be the death of me tara
sierrar66 (1:13:42 AM): especially when i was abt to kill msyelf in the game nayway
ahollywoodslayer (1:13:49 AM): lmao so we voting Fabio?
sierrar66 (1:14:00 AM): yeah
sierrar66 (1:14:07 AM): is three votes enough?
sierrar66 (1:14:13 AM): like u know for sure heidi is gonna vote fab?
ahollywoodslayer (1:15:01 AM): I think she would if she has nothing else to loose
ahollywoodslayer (1:15:03 AM): lose*
ahollywoodslayer (1:15:03 AM): lol
sierrar66 (1:15:36 AM): okay...
sierrar66 (1:15:45 AM): do you know her or anything?
sierrar66 (1:15:49 AM): like that would be really nice
sierrar66 (1:16:00 AM): i have a hard time trusting that she'll vote fab
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:03 AM): Yes I know her
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:07 AM): and she will vote Fabio
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:10 AM): I dont know KNOW her
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:16 AM): but I've played with her numerous of times
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:20 AM): besides, she thinks im a guy
sierrar66 (1:17:21 AM): okie cool
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:22 AM): so I've been flirting
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:23 AM): lmfao
sierrar66 (1:17:25 AM): good enough for me
sierrar66 (1:17:31 AM): should i use a vote changer?
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:36 AM): no
ahollywoodslayer (1:17:39 AM): thats a waste
sierrar66 (1:17:42 AM): okie cool
ahollywoodslayer (1:37:35 AM): we're good.
sierrar66 (1:37:40 AM): awesome
sierrar66 (1:37:44 AM): we can use it at merge
sierrar66 (1:37:48 AM): plus heidi has one too
ahollywoodslayer (1:37:48 AM): against monica
ahollywoodslayer (1:37:49 AM): <3
sierrar66 (1:37:55 AM): you know
sierrar66 (1:37:58 AM): i put in ym confessional
sierrar66 (1:38:06 AM): that i SWORE JT had the reward from the puzzle
sierrar66 (1:38:12 AM): and i was not happy abt it
sierrar66 (1:38:21 AM): now that i know ur JT i wish i'd been right
ahollywoodslayer (1:38:47 AM): haha no I dont
sierrar66 (1:42:31 AM):
ahollywoodslayer (1:42:39 AM): kk goodnight<3 going to bed
sierrar66 (1:42:41 AM): thnx for helping me
sierrar66 (1:42:44 AM): me too, night
ahollywoodslayer (1:42:47 AM): night nite
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you notice how she talks to me. just tells me what to do.
that simple. there's like no feeling behind it. tara you're pretty but you're dead behind the eyes.
everything is dead.
should i feel bad for a withering universe? for a poisonous atmosphere? for a pointless existence?
i refuse to feel bad for steph or fabio. i refuse to feel bad for myself, or for my giving into the most sensible demise i can see.
i refuse to feel bad for a system that's broken and an institution that doesn't exist.
and for the record, i will never trust tara. at all. not an ounce of faith.
but i'll walk the slaughter for my devotion.
