R7 - i just want to address this once and for all

[Sierra Reed]

during the inactives' tribal council


can you please go back and read what you actually posted for results?


now, imagine tara does this to you... where she makes this fucking challenge that involves you staying up all night and all day to "gaurd" the boards... you did it, smile on your face, hop in your step...

and then, you lose the hcallenge, had spent all that time, and you get mocked. not even one word of "good job for sticking in there"... you could've even said "good job on the endurance but your eyes weren't so good" or something, y'know ... anything?



and i've read the rules over and over and this is NOT me insulting you. and you say if we have a problem to talk to you about it.


i'm talking to you about it.



I HAVE A PROBLEM. i don't think you acknowledge your players, and the things they are sacrificing to play your game. i want a thank you when i stay here for 16 hours straight.



and do NOT tell me i am complaining about losing. for the love of god if you tell me that one mroe time i am literalyl going to cry.



all i want is a thank you. and please i dont want it hidden in an insult. and not a conditional thank you.



all i want is for you to acknowledge what i am sacrificing to be here.



i continuously say thanks and give you acknowledgement for all the stuff u do that i like. even in the middle of our fight i commnded on your episode guide again. i genuinely appreciate that and i want to show you.



and thats all i want in return. and this isn't me insulting you, and this isn't me complaining about losing. and its past me complaining about that challenge in particular.



i'm talking now for the future... from now on, when people do that, spend that much time...


i just tink we should get a thnx.




i know i need it or i feel worthless. i dont know about everyone else but that's how i personally am.






and i am sorry for the fighting. i genuinely am. but i cannot be here if i'm not gonna be appreciated. i jsut got WAY too much other stuff going on.






can we just... settle it? i apologize, you say you'll acknowledge my sacrifice next time... and we move on?


cause that's what i want to do. please.

[Sierra Reed]

"Don't bring it up again."


and this is my confessional. i'm not breaking any rules, i read them carefully. this is my space to talk about what i ant to talk about. if i'm hurt by something i should be able to vent here, i should be able to adress it here... as long as i'm not insulting you, which i made sure i wasn't.

[Amanda Kimmel]

You really missed a lot... and you really only made me angrier. You know that's not the way to get what you want, right?

We're done with this. Bring it up again and I unfortunately will have to give you a penalty.

[Sierra Reed]

okay it's done.

i'll listen and follow orders.

[Sierra Reed]

i dont know what to do.


i feel wrong.. voting heidi. after everything that's been proven to me, i just... i'm finding it really REALLY hard to vote against a less active person.


i truly believe all the active and fun people should be out of this game.




but i feel bad to fabio and steph if i vote them... personally. because they deserve so much better than what they're getting. we all do.




my mind is soooooo torn right now... i need some time to decide.


i still feel like it should just be me. i am the single most active person here.



i feel like, everything considered, the most active person should go home. and that's me.

[Amanda Kimmel]

"i truly believe all the active and fun people should be out of this game."

Why on earth would you believe that? Why is being active a bad thing?


And look... I can't just throw out that challenge. You honestly should vote out the person who is least useful to you.

If you vote out someone for being active and fun, shame on you.

[Sierra Reed]

ya... i'm getting there mentally...


it just takes me some time to come down from my emotions... sorry. bear with me.... please