Post by Sierra Reed on Nov 26, 2010 2:27:06 GMT -5
during the immunity challenge
forgive me for writing so much. i have to get my time in here... while i still have time left here. lol.
so i sent steph like 14 more words that she didn't find... and offered to look for some for fabio. and showed him where i found the other ones i was finding. he basically said he knows he could find a bunch more but he's too lazy.
lol... makes sense after eating a big meal.
but still, they're not worried enough. in my opinion. lol.
they have such an easy vote coming up, compared to me. all they gotta do is just vote me and that's that, no worrying, nothing. easy as pie
even if they do the much less smart thing and vote JT, all they gotta worry abt is beating him in a posting challenge. lol.
i'd do that. personally if i were them i would actually vote JT, but i'm confident enough in my posting skills to do that. and i'm also emotional enough to vote out the person who deserves to go, if all i gotta do is win a challenge to survive.
i'm gonna have to do the work for fabio tomorrow, and find him some extra words and send them to him, and just hope he uses them in time and that it's enough.
i mean, if i go to tribal... i'm fairly certain i will either go home or i will have to go against steph or fabio in a tie breaker. meaning i would have to go against someone who i'm not nearly as confident against. and i would have another enemy, of which i am clearly making many.
or just being left with many. i dont feel i'm doing THAT much to make enemies. i am doing some. like i've been doing a fair amount of bitching, publicly. that's a big one.
but mainly it's just boiling down naturally to me being alone. not a lot of help from me needed in getting to this point, it would have happened regardless.
i was on the outs from day one. or, not so much the outs... but like i was on the outter circle of being in.
if that makes sense.
and just... as more and more people have gone... we've gotten to the point where that outer circle now basically is the outside
even rob is constantly lying to me... and just like holding everything back... not saying anything ever. and telling me he'll do things which he doesn't... even intend to do, and he never does, because i check.
and i'm stuck with a bunch of people left from season 1. not only that, a bunch of people who likeall like eachother and know eachother and like... even the ones that aren't from tonga, are basically already in more just from knowing eachother better.
lol.
ahhhhhhhh jesus i am screwed. i soooooooo shoulda went with tara.
what can i do?
i mean i talked to rob lightly about brett. how i talked to brett and i was surprised that we both knew him, that he was with rob since week 1 and stuff... like i said it all, but i said it in a light hearted happy go lucky kinda way... and then asked him if brett knew abt the idol and all that, and did it in a way that was like hoping he'd know austin didn't have it. and roob was honest abt that. but then he like neglects to see the part where i just noticed all the time he's been syaing i'm his number 1 he's been lying. he neglects to confront the issue.
so tonight i'm gonna confront that issue and see what happens.
he gets somewhat emotional. but it's fake though. he says things like "oh i feel so shity about msyelf i always do such stupid things i should quit, i hate seeing you like this." but he says it everytime, to every issue, it's like his go-to response. to everything.
then just retreats from it as soon as possible.
but when he's got his constant fucking issues... i gotta sit and listen to it and deal with it.
and you know what? you know who doesn't have to?
brett.
and then i just get shit on for taking on the responsibility.
and once again, for 1000 reasons, i absolutely hate being here.
and yet i'm fighting to be here for some... reason.
forgive me for writing so much. i have to get my time in here... while i still have time left here. lol.
so i sent steph like 14 more words that she didn't find... and offered to look for some for fabio. and showed him where i found the other ones i was finding. he basically said he knows he could find a bunch more but he's too lazy.
lol... makes sense after eating a big meal.
but still, they're not worried enough. in my opinion. lol.
they have such an easy vote coming up, compared to me. all they gotta do is just vote me and that's that, no worrying, nothing. easy as pie
even if they do the much less smart thing and vote JT, all they gotta worry abt is beating him in a posting challenge. lol.
i'd do that. personally if i were them i would actually vote JT, but i'm confident enough in my posting skills to do that. and i'm also emotional enough to vote out the person who deserves to go, if all i gotta do is win a challenge to survive.
i'm gonna have to do the work for fabio tomorrow, and find him some extra words and send them to him, and just hope he uses them in time and that it's enough.
i mean, if i go to tribal... i'm fairly certain i will either go home or i will have to go against steph or fabio in a tie breaker. meaning i would have to go against someone who i'm not nearly as confident against. and i would have another enemy, of which i am clearly making many.
or just being left with many. i dont feel i'm doing THAT much to make enemies. i am doing some. like i've been doing a fair amount of bitching, publicly. that's a big one.
but mainly it's just boiling down naturally to me being alone. not a lot of help from me needed in getting to this point, it would have happened regardless.
i was on the outs from day one. or, not so much the outs... but like i was on the outter circle of being in.
if that makes sense.
and just... as more and more people have gone... we've gotten to the point where that outer circle now basically is the outside
even rob is constantly lying to me... and just like holding everything back... not saying anything ever. and telling me he'll do things which he doesn't... even intend to do, and he never does, because i check.
and i'm stuck with a bunch of people left from season 1. not only that, a bunch of people who likeall like eachother and know eachother and like... even the ones that aren't from tonga, are basically already in more just from knowing eachother better.
lol.
ahhhhhhhh jesus i am screwed. i soooooooo shoulda went with tara.
what can i do?
i mean i talked to rob lightly about brett. how i talked to brett and i was surprised that we both knew him, that he was with rob since week 1 and stuff... like i said it all, but i said it in a light hearted happy go lucky kinda way... and then asked him if brett knew abt the idol and all that, and did it in a way that was like hoping he'd know austin didn't have it. and roob was honest abt that. but then he like neglects to see the part where i just noticed all the time he's been syaing i'm his number 1 he's been lying. he neglects to confront the issue.
so tonight i'm gonna confront that issue and see what happens.
he gets somewhat emotional. but it's fake though. he says things like "oh i feel so shity about msyelf i always do such stupid things i should quit, i hate seeing you like this." but he says it everytime, to every issue, it's like his go-to response. to everything.
then just retreats from it as soon as possible.
but when he's got his constant fucking issues... i gotta sit and listen to it and deal with it.
and you know what? you know who doesn't have to?
brett.
and then i just get shit on for taking on the responsibility.
and once again, for 1000 reasons, i absolutely hate being here.
and yet i'm fighting to be here for some... reason.
