entry 9- Waarheid

[Brett Clouser]

No clue how this formatting is going to look on a regular moniter, but it looks good on my phone so whatever. Also do you know how hard it is to find images this small? Id have been better off transfering files over to my computer, editing them to the right size, tranfering the new files back, and uploading those images. It would have been faster and looked nicer. I know for next time now.

	WAARHEID Out of the middle set of tribes, only Austin remains from Aarde. Jt first out. Not a lot to say about tribe as whole.
	Austin Nice guy, likely getting the target on his back soon. There's a rumor that he and I are really close. Lol wut? Got a voting chart for all the premerge players, which he thinks is useless. Given that the premerge players are all incredibly active this probably lines up with some kind of twist. Didn't Tonga have a juror award where they could break the f4 tie? Im betting Austin won some kind of advantage for something like that.
	Brett Asshole as always. Probably not making friends with the Jury. Has 3x vote and a 2x vote. Pretending to still have vote changer. Big target this week, what fun. At war with Sierra... one of those wars were the two sides hate each other so much but still put on their biggest s to each others faces. Like the tavern scene in Inglourious Basterds. Will Brett survive? ..maybe?
	Fabio Dude, awesome. One of my allies. Get along with him really well. Jimmy is trying to turn him against me. Obviously this failed since he told me all about it and is helping me plan. Won advantage in IC. Has double vote. Underestimated, naive, friendly. Thinks Sierra telling him everything is somehow special.
	Jimmy Destroy. Should have booted last week. Fucking insane, huge idiot, needs to go. With Sierra. Has a" secret prize" which everyone now knows to be a double vote blocker. Not good. Hope he does not have double vote. Out to get me. Says he doesn't" trust" me anymore. Would know I voted with him last round if he wasn't such a mental case that he changed my vote to Rob for no reason.
	Monica Wants to vote with me and Rob. Not much help considering she essentially kidnapped herself for this round coming up. Has made way towards bottom of bootlist for now. Claims she doesn't have any strong alliances. I do not trust her, but she has done very little to get on my shitlist.
	Rob Closest ally. Really nice guy, if wishy-washy and depressed. Has considered quitting. He better not. Constantly believes himself to be target. Has double vote. Has a rock. Its name is Bob. Was with Sierra but I think he's finally become disillusioned with her. Wants Jimmy gone. Has promised he will never vote me out. I trust him a lot. He better not let me down.
	Sierra My favorite person! Only not. As a person she's fine but I really, really despise the way she plays a game and I want her out. So much. Gunning for me. Has double vote, mystery prize, and possibly one more automatic vote nullifier. Scares the living hell out of me. I think she will make her way to the finals if I am not here to stop her. Oh and she also has the prize from the damn reward. WTF. Huge huge challenge whore. Needs to go. If she has an idol too I might just quit the damn game.
	Steph Awesome, Ally. Don't think she trusts me very much but is still willing to help me. Might have issues with me working for Rob. Not the most active. Does NOT have a double vote. Has vote nulifiers. Thinks she can control Sierra. Will have to learn the hard way.

[Amanda Kimmel]

The formatting looks great!

Who goes first: Jimmy or Sierra?

[Brett Clouser]

I think Jimmy. Sierras reward stockpile is scary, and Steph and Fab both mistakenly believe Sierra to be completely docile and maleable. They think she's just fine and will tell them everything and do whatever they say. Honestly if I go before she does she's running shit all the way to the finals. But yeah, Jimmy goes first. Its easier to make a case for him to go, because everyone thinks Sierra is with them, whereas Jimmy can't keep his story straight at all.

[Brett Clouser]

Wake up, and see that I once again forgot to x-out AIM to go to sleep and was listed as" availible" all night, apparently never once going idle, because my phone just doesn't do that. So Jimmy IMs me and says "who should we vote?" Three minutes later "you, me, fab, and steph gonna vote together?" 5 minutes later" and now that u are not talking means that you are going to vote me ^-^"

No, Jimmy, it means im asleep at 6:50 am. It means I was tired, forgot to sign off, and appeared to be there when I was not.

Granted, I am totally voting out Jimmy.

I've wanted him gone for a very long time and im tired of talking to him and pandering to him and letting him get all worked up about our "alliance" that only exists when he needs it and because he tried to save himself from a vote in round 3 by turning it on steph so we had to vote with him instead of against him. Jimmy is a slimy little snake on daily cialis. He's campaigning against me but thinks its not getting back to me and thinks im voting with him, and its all very irritating.

Anyway, the plan was supposed to be blindsiding Jimmy. Tell Sierra its going to be Austin, make every indication that Austin is going to be extinguished, vote Jimmy. This was the plan, mainly existing to deflect some of the big gun rewards from being used and also to prove to Fabio and Steph that Sierra is in no way their puppet like they want to believe. With my luck she will vote with us and Ill look like a paranoid bastard.

And I am. That's what I've been reduced to: a paranoid, neurotic control freak. Usually I am one of the most laid back players out there. I have fun, I make jury, I get voted out, and I smile and sit pretty all the way to asking my happy congratulatory questions. Sometimes im a bitter juror and that's fun, but I don't ever play quite the way I am in this, where I feel the need to manage and micro manage every facet of the game, and I've been thinking about it and I think I understand what the cause of all this is: I don't think my friends would survive if I wasn't doing everything im doing. I think they would get picked off without me.

Im not sure its a very fair or accurate view of the game. Steph won last season, Rob is apparently the strongest social player and I had no idea at all, Fab is the biggest hero. I think im under estimating all 3 by a lot, but damn it I want us all 4 in the f4. If I was playing just for myself I would be way more under the radar, but im playing for 3 other people and that's why im playing the way I am.

Like a control freak.

Oh, but for the record, I do not mistakenly believe myself to be in control of this game. I just really wish I was.

Anyway, Fab started a group chat with me and rob and we came up with the plan to get Jimmy out. The plan is direct Sierra and her vote to Austin, blindside Jimmy. See what happens.

And then Rob ims me a few hours later, and Sierra is on board with voting Jimmy and I go" what." Because we're supposed to be telling her the target is Austin. If she says Jimmy, we're STILL supposed to say Austin. Its called keeping the story straight.

So yeah, not voting until this is all sorted out and handled with care. There's a giant ominous question mark looming on the horizon. I don't want to mess this up.

[Amanda Kimmel]

1) Do you think Rob told Sierra of the plan?

2) What makes you think your allies would get picked off without you?

3) Why do you think you're becoming a control freak?

4) Why are you playing for other people?

[Brett Clouser]

Urg had this finished and then browser crashed.


1) Do you think Rob told Sierra of the plan?

I prefer to believe that's a no. Rob is the one person in this game that I put 100% faith and trust in, so it would just... really suck if he was still working that closely with her when I really thought he knew better. I know the two of them were closer allies than me and him for a while, but I thought he came to realize she's just no good... I think would be really wrong about Rob if he did that, and that would just be really disappointing, not just because hes my ally and im trying to take him far, but because he's my friend.



2) What makes you think your allies would get picked off without you?

I just feel like they would rely on the wrong people and without me around I think Sierra would take over control of this game completely and I think she would go after my allies after im gone, and she's so flighty and dramatic that she can brush off a strategic move against a member of their alliance as A BIG BIG MISTAKE and earn their sympathy. Its like a demonic caniball ewe-beast in a field of sheep, occasionally swallowing up one of the lambs in a single gulp as all the rest of the flock stand and stare. The ewe-beast then goes" baaa" and everyone goes back to munching grass.




3) Why do you think you're becoming a control freak?

I've been getting very easily annoyed with people when they wont do what I want them to, lately, and I constantly want to take matters into my own hands because I think someone else wont do it right. Pretty standard definition control-freak right there. I've been trying to hold back on actually acting like one, though I think its pretty clear after looking at everything I've done since like... round 3 that I haven't been playing the kind of layed back wingman game that's in my comfort zone.





4) Why are you playing for other people?

Because I decided that my main goal in this game is to get my friends to the f4. I'm more focused on that than I am on winning that game, and its weird because when I first came up with that goal, I wasn't thinking about how much that would impact the way I play. Because even if im going for a win here, getting my allies to outlast all others would be an objective, however... if my main goal was winning I would be more comfortable with... acceptable loses along the way, whereas here, if even one of them goes, my plan is over. So, I've ended up kinda over protective of thembecause im so focused on making 3 different peoples' games play out the way I want, instead of just focusing on myself. Part of me feels like if I abandon the f4 as my main goal I would be letting them down, but im not abandoning them as allies, so that's kind of stupid.

God that's a rambling mess... but I can't edit too well so ill leave it. And Browser is lagging like never before so I will post this right now so I don't lose it again.

[Brett Clouser]

[Brett Clouser]