R11 - WHAT THE ****

[Sierra Reed]

RIGHT NOW, LITERALLY... ONLY ME AND BRETT ARE ONLINE...


oops sorry for caps...


why is there someone in monica's confessional?





oh nevermind it's showing natalie online now. that was freaky

[Sierra Reed]

during tribal council


i have never been soooooooooooooo pissed off at monica...


what the fuck... she keeps saying different things. over and over. now she wants to vote austin, with brett... like okay good you talked to brett and probly told him the entire plan like she told everyone else. she's probably lying to me abt not having got the second idol yet, too.



fabio says he doubts he can get brett to use any of his reward items. so that means that we're gonna keep fucking lame ass brett around with his 300 votes so that he can take me out next time.


yay... fucking yay.


or she's just gonna vote out rob. why the fuck did she go and tell rob the entire plan?






god... my vote is pointless this week. i may as well not even cast it.


and now fucking fabio says we need a group chat with monica and steph. like fuckin whatever, we need to run everything we do by them first because they have complete control.







i dont know. i literally have nothing to say. i feel... like my presence here is just pointless. fuckin stupid monica. BIGGEST MOUTH EVER.
















and everything i say goes to everyone. the only person i can talk to is fucking rob and i hate talking to him.


this is truly pathetic.


what i'd like to do is go let austin know that brett and monica are voting them...


and that i want to vote brett because we cant vote monica since she's using an idol.





i'll think abt it.





fabio voted austin. they're all voting austin. so... whatever.

[Amanda Kimmel]

If you self-vote, you can't participate in the next immunity. Keep that in mind.

[Sierra Reed]

oh yeah i know, i wont self vote... i just dont know what i'm gonna do.

[Sierra Reed]

weird... everything is just weird.



i got pissed off at monica and told her to stop fucking around with me and stuff... i told her i was pissed at her for telling rob everything, the whole plan, told her i wasn't voting austin because that just leaves me against someone who wants me out and 3 ppl who are together from S1. ya... i said all that. i even said some more... i dont eve know what, i just basically freaked at her.

and then rob asked me why i told stephenie that he wanted to vote stephenie...

like what the fuck i didn't ever say that for one... and who the fuck did that come from? apparently it didn't come from stephenie...

but when i confronted her abt that (still pissed at monica), i did it in a shitty way... but anyway she showed me the convo she had with monica alst night and it was just as confusing and suspicious as every convo i've ever had with her.


she went from wanting brett out, to rob, to austin, back to brett... then back to austin today...


now guess what? she tells me brett, again. and fabio says brett again. and even austin came to talk to me and said he's voting brett, and i let him know i am too.


monica says she's even gonna use her double vote on brett...

and use her idol.




and earlier, before monica went back to brett again, for the last time, i had sent brett a message saying that rob and i didn't want to vote austin, and that monica would probly be safe next round too, and like... i didn't want to be forced to choose between brett and austin but that's what he's doing to me and rob... and i told him that like, i realize if monica is safe next round he'd be using his rewards against me... and like, i didn't know what to do... and it just sucked...


and so he came and talked to me abt what he was gonna do... on AIM... he said he wants to split the votes... and he was talking to fabio abt it too... fabio said the same things he was syaing...

basically he wants to vote monica and austin, in case monica doesn't use her idol.

and he's gonna talk to me later cause we were both too busy for a detailed convo...











so...




i still kinda think monica and them are gonna vote austin... just want me to vote brett... so that next round brett will for sure be targetting me, and not any of them.





but i'm gonna vote brett. and i'm hoping that some of brett's votes will go to monica... and i'm hoping that he in fact uses his votes... like it's sounding like he is planning on now...


and i'm hoping that monica and fabio and steph vote brett.... and dont just hang me out to dry.
























and i realize how little sense most of that probably made. but seriously, this whole round makes no sense. monica... makes no sense. i have no idea why the fuck she is being sooooo indecisive but it's causing a shit laod of confusion for everyone...






maybe that's all it is.



i jsut want this to be over... i want an idol, too... or immunity next round... or i think my game will most likely be up.