Post by Brett Clouser on Dec 7, 2010 9:15:32 GMT -5
So... I got voted out. Saw it coming, just didn't know how to change it, honestly. 
Ever been sick, to the point where you're in one of those huge mental fogs where you aren't really sure whats going on? Yeah those suck when you've got a target painted on your face on Tribal Council day. I kept getting dizzy and tired when it was time to talk votes, and I kept going to lay down with only a half laid plan in place. I wish I could have done more, but it is what it is. I didn't know for sure what anyone was doing, and I didn't know what to do myself at around 12 last night when I finally got to talk to the lynch pin of the original plan: Sierra.
Trusting Sierra on any level was a mistake. What I wanted to do was get a read on her, and understand what she was thinking and going to do. Instead I just ended up going along with what was obviously not in my own best interests...
I honestly don't feel like I could say I was" beat" by Monica and Sierra. They were pretty sloppy about how they played it, pretty obvious in hindsight, and even at the time. I just... didn't know what I should do to stop the obvious set up and the only person around I could talk to was Rob, and I didn't really trust him not to tell her I was having doubts....
Its kind of like driving along in a thick blanket of fog, and you see another car up ahead in the gray vacuum of nothingness so you just keep following it up until you realize something doesn't feel right, the fogs not letting up and you have no clue where you are. And you stop and look around and you can't see anything minus the car you were originally following disappearing in the distance, and you could try to turn back but the road was really twisty and you could stay there but there's an ax murderer on the lose, and you could follow the car but for some reason every single alarm in your head is going off but you don't know why, and unknown car and destination is probably better than ax murder and getting into an accident because you can't see, right? You just have to cross your fingers and maybe it'll be OK.
Anyway, enough excuses. I'm out, my allies are in a significantly less strategic position, and Monica are in great ones. Its disappointing to leave it like that... I am not really too upset that I left the game, but I am really worried about what happens now to the people I left in. I gave Fab and Steph my main AIM if they need me, and I hope to they'll Know to ask about anything.
Ok, im rambling more than I expected to, so i'll just end it with this: I really loved the hell out of this game. I loved the strategy, I loved the cast, I loved the way I played it. It was by far the best game I have ever played, and I think I did a great job. I did a lot of things and made a lot of plans, but if I had to pick one thing I did that I was the happiest with: it was aligning with the people I did. I cpuld not have asked for more loyal allies and I had a great time meeting and getting to know Steph and Fab, as well as forging a friendship with Rob after I gave in that second chance in this game. Im really proud that I really had the absolute best on my side.
Right after Fabio saw the results, he thought I was gonna be mad at him, and he PMed me a screenshot of his voting confessional to make sure I knew he didn't betray me. He also IMed me and I took about 10 minutes to respond because of my phone disconnecting me. He probably thought I blamed him. Aww
Anyway, I had a blast playing, and I hope I come be back for AS! If not, I will fight like hell to make it next season.
On one more note: the people I aligned with were all friends of Colby, who totally went out like I did on the same round as me. Weird.
Ever been sick, to the point where you're in one of those huge mental fogs where you aren't really sure whats going on? Yeah those suck when you've got a target painted on your face on Tribal Council day. I kept getting dizzy and tired when it was time to talk votes, and I kept going to lay down with only a half laid plan in place. I wish I could have done more, but it is what it is. I didn't know for sure what anyone was doing, and I didn't know what to do myself at around 12 last night when I finally got to talk to the lynch pin of the original plan: Sierra.
Trusting Sierra on any level was a mistake. What I wanted to do was get a read on her, and understand what she was thinking and going to do. Instead I just ended up going along with what was obviously not in my own best interests...
I honestly don't feel like I could say I was" beat" by Monica and Sierra. They were pretty sloppy about how they played it, pretty obvious in hindsight, and even at the time. I just... didn't know what I should do to stop the obvious set up and the only person around I could talk to was Rob, and I didn't really trust him not to tell her I was having doubts....
Its kind of like driving along in a thick blanket of fog, and you see another car up ahead in the gray vacuum of nothingness so you just keep following it up until you realize something doesn't feel right, the fogs not letting up and you have no clue where you are. And you stop and look around and you can't see anything minus the car you were originally following disappearing in the distance, and you could try to turn back but the road was really twisty and you could stay there but there's an ax murderer on the lose, and you could follow the car but for some reason every single alarm in your head is going off but you don't know why, and unknown car and destination is probably better than ax murder and getting into an accident because you can't see, right? You just have to cross your fingers and maybe it'll be OK.
Anyway, enough excuses. I'm out, my allies are in a significantly less strategic position, and Monica are in great ones. Its disappointing to leave it like that...
I am not really too upset that I left the game, but I am really worried about what happens now to the people I left in. I gave Fab and Steph my main AIM if they need me, and I hope to they'll Know to ask about anything.Ok, im rambling more than I expected to, so i'll just end it with this: I really loved the hell out of this game. I loved the strategy, I loved the cast, I loved the way I played it. It was by far the best game I have ever played, and I think I did a great job. I did a lot of things and made a lot of plans, but if I had to pick one thing I did that I was the happiest with: it was aligning with the people I did. I cpuld not have asked for more loyal allies and I had a great time meeting and getting to know Steph and Fab, as well as forging a friendship with Rob after I gave in that second chance in this game. Im really proud that I really had the absolute best on my side.
Right after Fabio saw the results, he thought I was gonna be mad at him, and he PMed me a screenshot of his voting confessional to make sure I knew he didn't betray me. He also IMed me and I took about 10 minutes to respond because of my phone disconnecting me. He probably thought I blamed him. Aww
Anyway, I had a blast playing, and I hope I come be back for AS! If not, I will fight like hell to make it next season.
On one more note: the people I aligned with were all friends of Colby, who totally went out like I did on the same round as me. Weird.
