R12 - the opposite of confident

[Sierra Reed]

during tribal council


Fabio Birza 10:04 pm
(10:04:46 PM): any news
(10:04:54 PM): I'm back :-)
sierrar66 10:04 pm
(10:04:57 PM): ummm... monica was PMing me
(10:05:02 PM): tried to get me to vote austin
(10:05:07 PM): so i just said i might
(10:05:19 PM): i said if she stays and i vote austin would she promise to not vote me next round
(10:05:20 PM): lol
(10:05:28 PM): other than that not really
Fabio Birza 10:05 pm
(10:05:36 PM): any response from Austin?
sierrar66 10:05 pm
(10:05:43 PM): oh yeah he said he was voting monica
Fabio Birza 10:05 pm
(10:05:51 PM): YES!!! I love you :-)
sierrar66 10:05 pm
(10:05:55 PM): lol no problem
Fabio Birza 10:05 pm
(10:05:56 PM): good job
sierrar66 10:05 pm
(10:05:58 PM): :-P
(10:06:07 PM): hopefully everything goes good
(10:06:13 PM): if monica has some stupid idol or something
(10:06:16 PM): i'll be pissed :-P
Fabio Birza 10:06 pm
(10:06:35 PM): OMG no, that would be 4 Idols lol I dont think she does
sierrar66 10:06 pm
(10:06:46 PM): ya i dont tink so
(10:06:50 PM): stick a fork in her then :-P
(10:07:04 PM): oh ummm rob got me to show him my vote and he showed me his
(10:07:10 PM): and he actualyl did use the double vote
(10:07:16 PM): so did i... so... we should be good
(10:07:24 PM): i used my idol tho too
(10:07:33 PM): i mean there's still a couple hours for me to change my mind
(10:07:45 PM): and i'm obsessing over the decision... but as of right now, i'm using it :-P
Fabio Birza 10:07 pm
(10:07:59 PM): yup, I am gonna watch Apprentice Finale at 10
(10:08:13 PM): in 1 hou
sierrar66 10:08 pm
(10:08:17 PM): i'll be watching office
Fabio Birza 10:08 pm
(10:08:23 PM): I dont know what your time zone is lol
(10:08:30 PM): est US here
sierrar66 10:08 pm
(10:08:32 PM): i am atlantic
(10:08:38 PM): i'm one hour ahead then








that pretty well sums up my day... here... along with this:



Rob Mariano 9:47 pm
(9:47:45 PM): :-) are you using the HII or still thinking? cause you got 2 hours
sierrar66 9:48 pm
(9:48:54 PM): using
(9:49:02 PM): i'm too nervous to not use it
(9:49:05 PM): scares the hell outta me :-P
Rob Mariano 9:49 pm
(9:49:08 PM): :-P
sierrar66 9:49 pm
(9:49:21 PM): i am gonna trust you and fabio to not vote me out next round
(9:49:35 PM): we could easily vote out austin, i figure :-P
(9:49:37 PM): or steph if you wanted
(9:49:43 PM): i'm just gonna put my faith in ur hands!!!
(9:49:44 PM): :-)
Rob Mariano 9:49 pm
(9:49:50 PM): austin's just "here"
sierrar66 9:49 pm
(9:49:54 PM): lol
Rob Mariano 9:49 pm
(9:49:55 PM): he hasnt done a single thing
(9:49:56 PM): :-P
Rob Mariano 9:51 pm
(9:51:05 PM): and Fabio's probably thinking.... "hey we get rid of Monica, I can get Steph back"
sierrar66 9:51 pm
(9:51:24 PM): true
(9:51:32 PM): well, either way ya'll wanna vote
(9:51:39 PM): it
(9:51:50 PM): is probably the smartest move, me using it

sierrar66 10:02 pm
(10:02:29 PM): omg
(10:02:43 PM): monica told me in the last PM she sent that she wants to vote you again next round
Rob Mariano 10:02 pm
(10:02:47 PM): =-O
(10:02:50 PM): lol wow
sierrar66 10:02 pm
(10:02:58 PM): if i vote austin, and she stays, she promises not to come after me
(10:03:08 PM): but she wants to go after you next round
(10:03:12 PM): like c'mon
(10:03:17 PM): why the fuck would i vote austin then?
Rob Mariano 10:03 pm
(10:03:20 PM): lmao
(10:03:26 PM): i hope she goes even more now
sierrar66 10:03 pm
(10:03:32 PM): i know
(10:03:39 PM): and she'd say the same thing to you, too, if she survived
(10:03:43 PM): wanna vote out sierra next?!
(10:03:44 PM): lol
Rob Mariano 10:04 pm
(10:04:01 PM): lol im waiting for that
sierrar66 10:04 pm
(10:04:06 PM): hahahaha











do i sound confident in those convos? the fab one, for sure...


i'm not, at all. the more i think abt it, the more i am believing what i wrote on my vote for monica... i am so scared to try and take this girl out without being immune myself








this is quite likely... my last day.

[Sierra Reed]

well shit... i gotta go till after results


and my AIM just blew up... steph just started talking to me... asked who i voted, i said austin, and let austin know... and fabio, and rob...


and austin was talking to me, and fabio... lol as soon as i gotta go.



anyway... i told fabio and rob the truth abt my non-idol usage. i hope it doens't bite my ass.







i hope i hope i hope... and i am more nervous than ever before. i told steph that like... i had to go but in short, monica told me abt the S1 alliance and like, abt the plan to blindside me, we hashed ito ut, it's okay, i'm hoping everything will be cool next round when i dont have my idol.





.... oh god i wish i didn't have to go right now. i feel like...


damn i shouldn't have been honest. but i started thinking at the end... if fabio is really worried, and he thinks i'm using hte idol, he might tell everyone i'm not and get them to vote me to waste their votes.



he promised me up and down that... everything will be fine.






i am just so not confident.



and this could very well be my last confessional ever. i wish it weren't so rushed.






goodbye...

[Sierra Reed]

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