Post by Brett Clouser on Nov 5, 2010 5:59:55 GMT -5
So, today was Brett-fucks-up day. Yay. 
My computer was giving me issues, but I had told Scout that I was going to be here at 7 to work on the challenge. I got on, told her I was having issues and wanted to get things sorted before I started on the challenge. Finally she said "would it be OK if me and Jimmy start?" and I'm thinking to myself "why WOULDN'T it be?" but I was ok with that. 10 minutes in I checked and noticed Jimmy wasn't on and a post needed to be made, so I caught it. But, well, I was still havingissues, and I assumed, incorrectly, that Scout had alerted the masses that we'd started. I got distracted, and finally Scout IMed that I had to go now. I posted, and my computer clock said 7:16... but the time had passed.
I couldn't believe it. I felt pretty shitty about it.
I take responsibility for the fuck-up, but... at the exact same time I did say I was having difficulties and would start pulling the weight later. I wasn't prepared to be the sole poster every 10 minutes, and I think that that wasn't fully my responsibility. Scout blamed me. Everyone blamed me. I blame myself... but at the same time, I don't feel like I should go home for what happened.
I would probably cast a vote for someone fucking up the way that I did, with no inactives to turn the vote on... but you know, shit happens, and it is my ass on the line here. Selfish, hypocritical... but I can't just tell everyone to vote me out Week 1.
So Scout IMs me and gives me the long list of names we can't vote out this week. It got longer. She says "Fabio or JT" is the choice. I never talked to JT. I did talk to Fabio, and I like the guy. I get a good vibe from him and he's actually social even if his schedule is like a train wreck. So I tell Scout that Fabio seems pretty active to me (he doesn't), and so we decide on JT.
We meaning Scout.
Scout then goes to campaign, and I let her. I don't want blood on my hands yet, don't feel like going though the awkward process of admitting my guilt for our loss then pushing the vote onto someone who did absolutely nothing wrong. I would rather people just decide to vote me out then shift the blame onto someone totally innocent.
But... if Scout's going to campaign I'm not going to turn her down.
Anyway, Matty told JT, and I don't remotely blame him, and they.. don't take it well. And a war breaks out, Scout vs Matty and JT. They both come to me to campaign against Scout. And I said I would, and I was torn on whether I was actually with them until I found out that Scout blocked both of them on AIM.
That... kind of killed any shot she might have had, for me and my vote.
It's immature, irresponsible, and just generally a shitty move in a social game like this, especially when we all need to work together. Between this, and the sudden alliance chain, and the arguments, and finally naming me as the one who picked JT after she swore she never would... I can't vote to keep her.
JT's points are all direct, sensible, and he's got a hell of a lot of charisma. He makes sense. His arguments make sense. He'll GET the numbers, and I can't vote against majority and go down with the SS Scout.
So JT asked if I would be up for an alliance with him and Matty. I said yes. It's a better option than the one I have now, which is an alliance of 4 where I have barely spoken at all with 2 of the others. Do I think I'll go all the way with JT and Matty? Of course not. I can already tell they're 2 fierce players, charismatic, dangerous, and also I would bet my life on them being a pregame f2. I don't doubt that they would have said they were the ones running shit, etc etc. I don't think Scout would fabricate it.
But, going against them right now for one person who is, for all intents and purposes screwed and playing a sloppy game would be a poor plan on my part. And... who knows what'll happen.
Anyway, it's 7 am. I'm rambling. And no it's not 7 am because I woke up early.
My computer was giving me issues, but I had told Scout that I was going to be here at 7 to work on the challenge. I got on, told her I was having issues and wanted to get things sorted before I started on the challenge. Finally she said "would it be OK if me and Jimmy start?" and I'm thinking to myself "why WOULDN'T it be?" but I was ok with that. 10 minutes in I checked and noticed Jimmy wasn't on and a post needed to be made, so I caught it. But, well, I was still havingissues, and I assumed, incorrectly, that Scout had alerted the masses that we'd started. I got distracted, and finally Scout IMed that I had to go now. I posted, and my computer clock said 7:16... but the time had passed.
I couldn't believe it. I felt pretty shitty about it.
I take responsibility for the fuck-up, but... at the exact same time I did say I was having difficulties and would start pulling the weight later. I wasn't prepared to be the sole poster every 10 minutes, and I think that that wasn't fully my responsibility. Scout blamed me. Everyone blamed me. I blame myself... but at the same time, I don't feel like I should go home for what happened.
I would probably cast a vote for someone fucking up the way that I did, with no inactives to turn the vote on... but you know, shit happens, and it is my ass on the line here. Selfish, hypocritical... but I can't just tell everyone to vote me out Week 1.
So Scout IMs me and gives me the long list of names we can't vote out this week. It got longer. She says "Fabio or JT" is the choice. I never talked to JT. I did talk to Fabio, and I like the guy. I get a good vibe from him and he's actually social even if his schedule is like a train wreck. So I tell Scout that Fabio seems pretty active to me (he doesn't), and so we decide on JT.
We meaning Scout.
Scout then goes to campaign, and I let her. I don't want blood on my hands yet, don't feel like going though the awkward process of admitting my guilt for our loss then pushing the vote onto someone who did absolutely nothing wrong. I would rather people just decide to vote me out then shift the blame onto someone totally innocent.
But... if Scout's going to campaign I'm not going to turn her down.
Anyway, Matty told JT, and I don't remotely blame him, and they.. don't take it well. And a war breaks out, Scout vs Matty and JT. They both come to me to campaign against Scout. And I said I would, and I was torn on whether I was actually with them until I found out that Scout blocked both of them on AIM.
That... kind of killed any shot she might have had, for me and my vote.
It's immature, irresponsible, and just generally a shitty move in a social game like this, especially when we all need to work together. Between this, and the sudden alliance chain, and the arguments, and finally naming me as the one who picked JT after she swore she never would... I can't vote to keep her.
JT's points are all direct, sensible, and he's got a hell of a lot of charisma. He makes sense. His arguments make sense. He'll GET the numbers, and I can't vote against majority and go down with the SS Scout.
So JT asked if I would be up for an alliance with him and Matty. I said yes. It's a better option than the one I have now, which is an alliance of 4 where I have barely spoken at all with 2 of the others. Do I think I'll go all the way with JT and Matty? Of course not. I can already tell they're 2 fierce players, charismatic, dangerous, and also I would bet my life on them being a pregame f2. I don't doubt that they would have said they were the ones running shit, etc etc. I don't think Scout would fabricate it.
But, going against them right now for one person who is, for all intents and purposes screwed and playing a sloppy game would be a poor plan on my part. And... who knows what'll happen.
Anyway, it's 7 am. I'm rambling. And no it's not 7 am because I woke up early.
